Tired

[EmmaEllie]

This anxiety and depression is getting the best of me.. my mind is really really tired...I get tired of bothering my family with these issues, but its just so unbearable sometimes.. no joy in anything... every day feels like an eternity... getting to work is a monumental feat in and of itself...I read about how people say they been living like this for years... How is that possible???...My mind scares me... Mental Health is something we all take for granted until it turns on you...I just want to feel a little normal again with some hope...I don't know if that's possible anymore

[BrainIsFull]

I understand feeling exhausted. Having these issues is exhausting! The mental energy that we have to exert just to get out of bed in the morning let alone function is astounding. I believe that there is hope for you! I had given up hope and then I got the right help at the right time and felt like I'd been given a second chance at life! So I know that it's possible.

🙂I am having a tough time right now and that's hard to accept. But these disorders have ups and downs...

I would like to suggest that you give yourself LOTS of credit for the fact that you do keep getting up each day. You haven't given up and as we know that is a huge feat!

And, you are not alone. I'm here thinking about you right now.💚

[EmmaEllie in reply to BrainIsFull]

I'm diagnosed MDD... I've tried a few different meds to no avail so far..Dr wants me to try vibryyd next.. Sister keeps telling me brain will heal naturally with diet and exercise and I'm not sure what to do. Mental Illness runs in family. I've had these issues on and off for probably 25 years... just 2 prior big episodes that I somehow got through but they are nothing like this one...I quit drinking last November and haven't been the same since... Nothing but severe depression, anxiety, and intrusive bad thoughts

[Joeyman]

Hello friend, I feel your pain. I can relate to your feeling tired so much of the time. I think it's because our brains keep formulating potential scenarios all the time while other people's brains don't. It's like a smartphone having too many apps in the background when it doesn't really have to and as a result loses battery charge fast. On some of my worst days, I don't even feel like getting out of bed. But now I have realised that this is probably how it's going to be for the rest of my life and I need to learn to manage my daily tasks. I won't be able to do the things that others can do but that's ok. Medication and spirituality have helped me a lot to manage my life. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

[Sabio77]

you are not alone. there is a way out and you can get thru this I have and you can too. do you talk to anyone like doctor for meds to help manage the day/nights? its a good idea to think about a journal of all your thoughts and what you do/say and who is around you what you eat and drink too. this will help you find the cause/triggers and help you begin that recovery process. it helped me learn alot. help this helps you.

[EmmaEllie in reply to Sabio77]

Thank you even though it feels like I'm alone... My sleep has been bad last few days even taking stuff to help me sleep.. I'm extremely depressed right now but trying to push through it. Honestly just feel like crying non-stop. Yes, I have a psychiatrist I see... I'm kind of in between meds right now.. only doing a ketamine spray, but that only helps so much. He wants me to start Vibryyd...I just tried pristiq and trillinex...I thought pristiq was gonna work..but didn't... that DNA swab says to try Vibryyd so who knows. My sister keeps telling me I can do this the natural way and maybe I could..idk...I know that would take a long time and Idk if I can handle the weight of this depression that long.. I've been on and off AD's since 20's.. will be 51 this year...I started a journal a few months ago, but haven't wrote in it in a while. I get scared cause of the intrusive thoughts...I know that's all they are, but they can be tough to process if that makes sense. And I have bad anxiety... aren't I the lucky one...My family tells me all I have to do is change the way I think and I'll get better.... that's true to an extent... but if they could only come into my head for 5 minutes.. they might sing a different tune

[Mamatired in reply to EmmaEllie]

I’m sorry you are struggling and experiencing this pain and anguish. It breaks my heart to hear. I am sending you a virtual hug. You mentioned that you’ve been suffering thru this on and off for some time. Each time, you get thru this and will get thru it again this time. You are not alone. It’s hard for family members to understand sometimes so please be mindful to not fight it because it can be futile. At least that’s what I notice in my experience. One step at a time. Pick one strategy and try to practice is for a few minutes everyday to make it stronger. If it doesn’t work, try something else until you find something you enjoy.

[KJnOTT]

I am so glad you reached out, we need the support and encouragement of others, particularly when we are struggling. I know what it is like to feel stuck in your situation and feelings, wondering when it is going to turn around. Take it one day at a time, no more than that. Here is a great resource that may be of help to you: bit.ly/3c0D4wS

Praying that you find strength, hope and love during this season. Blessings

[EmmaEllie in reply to KJnOTT]

Ok..TY

[kvolm2016]

Hey EmmaEllie, glad you are here to get some support and encouragement while you are in this low place. I'm sorry that it has been a prolonged period of struggle this time. Both work and family relationships are certainly draining and that is extra hard when you are already expending so much mental energy on thought control. So I agree that you should give yourself more credit for continuing to be productive and interacting with others! When will you have the opportunity to start the Vibryyd ? And what does the dr. say is a normal adjustment period before you can determine it's effectiveness?

[EmmaEllie in reply to kvolm2016]

I took first dose today.. I'm assuming the average for an antidepressant...4 weeks...I don't know how accurate or well those DNA swabs are, but mine said vibryyd was good match or should be a good match.. so we'll see.. fingers crossed..

[kvolm2016 in reply to EmmaEllie]

Glad to hear that you got started. Does starting this make you feel hopeful or are you guarding yourself from hope to protect against disappointment?