Extremely depressed

[Shelbyann29]

Hello, I’m currently suffering from extreme bouts of depression. I’m used to having panic attacks but ive never had depression like this

My sons father who left us is the cause and I just feel really worthless.

I have suffered from childhood abuse and trauma that has played a role in the men I date and the way I behave, which I’m trying to heal.

I’m frustrated because I’m doing everything right to fight this depression, I’m eating healthy, exercising, seeing my family, going on hikes, meditating and doing yoga but nothing seems to work. My depression is at an all time high today. Anyways, I would love some support or someone to talk to.

[ItsRoseAgain]

I'm so sorry you've been going through this. It sounds like you have had some really painful experiences and that you have overcome a lot to get where you are today. I think the biggest thing is to be gentle with yourself. You are doing your best and have so much worth & value independent of how you feel. Keep trying to having "non-zero days" where you do something positive or something that you can be proud of--even if you feel like you are just going through the motions. Working out and hiking and connecting with other people might feel like they are having no impact, but I really think those things still have value and help over time and you should be really proud of yourself for working so hard to do these things, it isn't easy to do! Keep track of your "wins"--you are doing a good job trying to do the things that will make you feel better and that is a brave and resilient thing to do. Last of all, you are so much more than your depression, have overcome so much in life, and deserve to feel better. I hope relief comes soon!

[Hidden]

Hello ShelbyAnn! Talk to us! Pour your heart out to someone you feel comfortable with and don't hold back the tears if you feel like crying. Feel appreciated and even one friend who understands can make all the difference. Life is so precious and you will find it is worth it.

[JkBauer]

Hello Shelbyann,

I am sorry to hear about the struggles that you are going through. You have come to a great place here. We are all here to listen to whatever you have to say. You are among friends here.- I also want to say, " great job on fighting for overcoming your depression."

[FOF9303]

So sorry Shelbyann that you are feeling rough right now. First of all congratulate yourself today for reaching out and for recognizing that you are doing all the right things to help yourself by exercising, eating healthy, etc.. etc.. I hope that this is just a transitional depression for you because of abandonment and hope that this feeling passes quickly, but please do not hesitate to speak to a counselor or your family doctor if things do not improve. Choose a couple things everyday that you feel really good about and nurture those things. Whether you know it or not, the Lord is smiling down on you. He loves you deeply. Always remember that and that you will come through this. God Bless.