Is it wrong to be sitting by myself being miserable when I'm supposed to be having fun with my friend at her house?

[MasterofDisaster3]

I'm spending this weekend at my friend's house but I'm stressed out. I'm scared outta my mind about a procedure I'm having done on Tuesday and if this procedure even enough to save my life. And right now she's hanging out with her other friend and I feel like the 3rd wheel cause they just have more history and a stronger connection. So I'm just sitting here collecting my thoughts and letting them do their thing in the living room. I like being here with her but right about now I just wanna go home. I want my Mama.

[Hidden]

Not wrong it's normal to be nervous about things like that. But instead of hiding out alone, why not pull your friend aside and tell her how you're feeling so she can help and you feel better.

[MasterofDisaster3 in reply to Hidden]

I never share my feelings with anyone

[Hidden in reply to MasterofDisaster3]

Yeah I don't like doing it either that's why I drink and do pills. When I do share I do feel a little better so if you decide you want to talk but not with your friend. I'm here I'll listen and try and help.

[Pinkie56]

Its not wrong just not the best of ideas. The most fantastic parties are the ones I get dragged to. If you can get out with your friends. They'll be so happy and maybe you will too.

[Junella]

I relate to your fear of any sort of medical thing. You don't say how serious it is, but it is normal to be afraid and not feel like socializing. You can talk about it if that is appropriate in your relationship. Maybe they already know. Deep breath and practice mindfulness. I always pray about such things. I pray for you now.

[Bagrat]

I know how tough it is the share feelings. I never cry and wish I could. Last time must be about 10 yrs ago. The best thing I ever did was to tell people I have problems with anxiety. Of course you are worried.

Practice going through the run up to the procedure, feeling confident and supported. Walking into the health centre/ hospital feeling calm. Then returnig home grateful it went well.

It's what athletes do.

Good friends will accept you just as you are and although they don't always say the right thing ( I hate, stay strong!!!) they care about you. I too have health anxiety and have even spoken to a lovely doc at 111 yesterday.

I don't know what helped, i practice meditation and relaxation. Loads on YouTube, but today is better. Every day can be better, often it is. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.