Day 4

[AK0424]

So I'm on day 4 of major pain... Still suffering from my car accident a year and 5 months later. Been an 8 since Sunday. So hard to get through the day, working from home kinda helps. I can be a tad less productive without people knowing. Saw a doctor at the Spine Institute in my state and he's really knowledgeable. My step now is trigger point injections in my neck muscles. UGH I am SO afraid of needles and have been all my life. Just the past couple of years I have been able to get my flu shots by myself. I had a shot in my wrist maybe 11 years ago and I almost had to be peeled off the ceiling. I want my boyfriend to be there with me but with the pandemic, they probably won't let him be there. I just need some relief. Even if it's temporary. He doesn't want to give me strong meds because he doesn't want me to get addicted. It's musculoskeletal pain, and most likely be dealing with this for the rest of my life 😢 and I'm only 39. Some days I get so frustrated. And depressed. Today I'm just tired and not wanting to deal with it. Want to curl up and cry, but work needs my attention. Need to drag myself to the grocery store later, hope I can. Sigh. This sucks. I know I'm not, but I feel alone. This pandemic has done a doosey on my mind.