I am on disability for anxiety that was caused by a huge trauma. Now I am lonely and have been for years. Can anyone give me advise?

[Anxiety-guy]

Please read my initial story about what caused my trauma. I use.to be very smart. I was very analytical and I made it to a high position. But now I am on disability for anxiety. I'm 48 and I see nothing good ahead for me. Can someone advise me on how to take the first step?

[Hb2003]

Hello welcome 😄 . People are very supportive and kind and understanding 😄 . What’s your story ? I dont see a post about that . Much support and kindness- Hiba

[Isinatra in reply to Hb2003]

Hi Hiba. Read his profile for his story.❤️🏄‍♀️

[Hb2003 in reply to Isinatra]

Thank you for letting me know ❤️ much appreciated

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Hb2003]

Thank you. My story is long. Basically I worked very hard with a panic disorder that I managed and got to a very high influential position as a tech lead in global corporate pharmaceutical manufacturing role. I was married and I had a child. I don't have the strength right now to tell you all the details but my wife got cancer and died. Then after I worked at work and through that grief my inlaws fought me in court for my daughter. My father in law was a sheriff and I was followed and people came into my house when I was working and I became delusional and paranoid. My in laws got temporary custody of my daughter because of a trick my lawyer was trying to pull which didn't work and I had to work very hard to get her back. But 3 months before I was about to get her back I was in no position mentally to do what my in laws were doing for her. She was thriving. So I gave up. And the anger between my in laws and I caused my anxiety to get worse and. I couldn't do my work anymore I moved into my brother's house. And it took 6 years to get disability. Also I have not even spoken to my daughter since she was 7. And now I need to let go of the past. I'm lonely and I have no friends. But I'm reading the Bible and I am thankful for all my blessings.

[Hb2003 in reply to Anxiety-guy]

I am so sorry about that . Much kindness and support

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Hb2003]

Thank you

[Hb2003 in reply to Anxiety-guy]

Your welcome 🙏✌️

[Isinatra]

I don’t see a mention of therapy. That would help get you jump started and unfold the rest of the world for you. My best to you.❤️🏄‍♀️

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Isinatra]

I have a phobia about therapy because twice I was brought in by huge police officers by force and against my will and after a fight to inpatient and was given antipsychotics and woke up a zombie when I was in outpatient therapy right after I was at the end of the fight for my daughter.

[Isinatra in reply to Anxiety-guy]

I’ve had my bad runs like you, but I kept pushing through. Not all my experiences with getting mental health were negative. If they were, I wouldn’t be alive today at 70 years old. Coming here to this site is a step forward to getting help. I couldn’t have done it by myself.. ❤️🏄‍♀️

[lillyofthevalley37]

Hi I just read your story - it was a very interesting read , your brother brought you back home you have got your disability so you have some stability , you have faith in God I think you will be ok , please keep posting

[Anxiety-guy in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Thank you. Your a blessing.

[Hidden]

Hi, I'm a 50 year old woman, I have bipolar disorder and I'm on disability. It's not a lot to live off of!!! Once you're on it, it's very difficult to get off of it. I believe it's important to try to have some quality to your life even if you don't have a job. Try to find some different hobbies, and you should be allowed to work part time 2 or 3 days a week. 💖

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Hidden]

I agree. Its not a lot to live off. But for 2 years I have been reading the Bible and praying and for 6 months my faith has grown stronger and I don't want any material possessions besides a car, I've got to be able to get around. I bought a never driven Volkswagen jetta 3 years old but new. Its got a turbo in it so on the express way I can punch it and beat most cars. However I do have some panic attacks when I drive.

But yes I have been trying to get past my anxiety and get out and meet people and do some activity. I know I can work. I think I can work and make up to 1500 dollars. But I have not worked in such a long time I am weak physically and my commitment is low. And I use to have a high profile job and now I would have to take a lower job. I know that is a sin called pride and I am working on that. I have signed up to volunteer first to get my feet wet. I also would like to meet a woman and have friends but I feel that I can't because once they find im on disability for a mental condition they would be scared of me.

Thanks for your reply.

Chris

[Hidden]

methylated b vitamins. Hope this helps. It helped me so much for a problem that sounds the same. I am not a doctor. check out mthfr gene mutation. It is very common and can cause mental problems.

[Gentlespirit]

The situation is complicated and my heart truly goes out to you. A lot of anguish is involved. I hope everything will work out in the long run. It would be nice if everyone could relate to everyone elses situation and we all get along. In an idealistic perfect world right?

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Gentlespirit]

I agree if everyone could relate to everyone's else's situation and we would get along that would be great.

I am about to get ready to go to mass. Please tell me about your situation. If you have empathy for me should I not have compassion for you?

[Gentlespirit]

That is very kind and compassionate of you. I miss reading stories to my kids and I would like to read a story on youtube. I do not know how many kids or parents with their kids would like it. Every January and part of February I have alot of anxiety and its been almost 40 years since the trauma occurred. There's something else too. Anyway I woke up in a lot of pain this morning and had a hard time getting out of bed. Worse than usual with my back hip leg and pain in my neck collarbone and shoulder all the way to my fingers. Even with my meds pain medication by doctor prescribed and my ipain ointment I am still in pain. My arthritis and frozen shoulder? I'm tired. I don't like to go out much in the winter . Also trying to be careful cuz of covid. Thank you for your empathy. May the Lord be with you today and always. Take care.

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Gentlespirit]

Please read my next post. I would write it to just you but I think a lot of people dealing with depression need to read it. Its a c.s. Lewis quote on love and I believe that most depression is caused by huge traumas in peoples lives. Its a coping mechanism. Please read it.

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Gentlespirit]

How are you feeling today? Hi, was just wondering how your anxiety and your physical pain were today. Any better? Did you try to find a story on YouTube you might enjoy?

[Gentlespirit in reply to Anxiety-guy]

I have had to take stronger pain medication and to sleep more because my shoulder is injured. When I move acertain way i feel it all the way to my fingers. Especially my 2 end fingers. I'm trying not to move it. My spine leg and hip are in pain too it rained though too so it probably made it worse. Thanks for asking. Still breathing though. Yah.

[Laurennnnnnn]

I’m not sure what this is what you’re looking for, but have you considered volunteering?

Your past traumatic experiences have probably given you immense empathy, and your intelligence is just another boost. There are probably so many ways you could help other people and give them purpose.

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Laurennnnnnn]

I have signed up for various volunteer opportunities but because of the pandemic organizations are not taking volunteers. At least the ones I signed up for.

[Gentlespirit]

Interesting

[Anxiety-guy in reply to Gentlespirit]

I looked online for more volunteering opportunities. I have to confess that my anxiety has calmned down a lot but I am still scared to leave the house. So I found one volunteer opportunity. Its a virtual opportunity to be penpals for people like me, almost shut ins to have someone to talk to. At least that is a little progress. I thought of you today while I was praying and I thought about your pain. I worked for a large pharmaceutical company. Alot of the drugs for your pain don't work so well. From what you were explaining to me with arthritis is the main problem with arthritis being inflammation. I might be wrong. I smoke and I know that is a sin. But I take turmeric for inflammation in my lungs. I would suggest that you research the best most affordable turmeric. When you do your research remember that the biggest problem with any supplement or drug working is how easily the body absorbs a chemical of any kind. Because I worked for a big pharmaceutical company I don't believe anything I see on T.V. about a drug even if it has been studied to be effective including turmeric. I saw all the politics and money that goes into the pharmaceutical industries and the medical industry. But I still believe that some natural supplements like turmeric can be just as effective as hydrocodine or even oxycotin.

[Gentlespirit in reply to Anxiety-guy]

I have to be in serious pain to take t3. I used to take extra strength arthritis pain relief I still use epsom salts icy hot patches eat more 🍌 blueberries strawberries raspberries and fresh vegetables. My asthma arthritis shoulder and back pain chronic pain is wearing me down. It seems like its physical or anxiety or depression. I do minimize medication as best I can. Thank yyou. I have read about turmeric. I'm grateful for your concern and sincerity. Helping each other that's what is important. Thanks. Take care

[Sankissjuice in reply to Anxiety-guy]

This is really.great advice. I also started taking curcumin lately for the anti inflammatory effect etc. Waiting to see if it improves.

[Gentlespirit]

I think trying some things and having an open mind is important

[Anxiety-guy]

Thank you.