Hello, it’s my first time writing on here. I have been struggling a lot with my mind recently and wanted to have some sort out outlet but mainly I sometimes need an outside source to tell me when my mind is working against me. I can find it hard to recognize my own self-sabotage as it is occurring.
Today I had a project deadline and planned plenty of time in my day for it but the second I sat down to start working I went into a depressive spiral ending with getting very little done and missing the deadline. After about 40 minutes of just staring at the computer feeling terrible I stopped trying to get anything done and went to my regular coping methods. I keep feeling guilty for abandoning my work. Should I feel this guilty? I felt at the time that I was not going to be productive anyways and that I needed to prioritize my mental health. But I can’t afford to do poorly at work right now either. I am struggling with what to prioritize. Thanks for listening.