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I can’t handle much more......

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Everything was going great; my depression was being controlled and my anxiety was being taken care of. It is a constant day-to-day struggle but I did it and will continue to do it.

But right now I feel as though I am going completely insane. About a week ago I started having these strange symptoms that I just can’t pinpoint what it is. I get this “Feeling “ come over me that I just can’t explain. It feels like my heart is racing but it’s not. It feels like I can’t breathe but I can. I feel so off-balance and lightheaded. It’s to the point where I feel I am going to pass out. I’ll check my blood pressure daily and it’s fine. I checked my sugars and they’re fine. I checked my pulse and my pulse is fine. I even went as far as to limit my screen time and went to bed early thinking that maybe sleep deprivation may have been the answer. I haven’t been sleeping and I’ve always had issues with insomnia. It’s becoming all that I think about and I am constantly panicked that there’s something so majorly wrong with me. I know by me panicking it only intensifies the feelings that I’m having but I can’t help it. I’m doing the breathing exercises, I’m looking for things to keep me occupied and sometimes I’m OK but the feeling always comes back and I’m terrified.

I know it’s excessive (the thoughts, taking the sugar levels, taking my blood pressure/pulse, worrying my lungs are failing). My brain logically knows all this but my body isn’t getting the hint. I’m on the verge of a break down. I hate this feeling. I don’t know what to do. Obviously my mind is going to go to the worse case scenario.

The only difference in the past two weeks is a multi vitamin my doctor suggested and he increased my busprione.

If anyone can help me; please. I need some advice. My family and friends just don’t understand

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Starrlight profile image
Starrlight

When did you start taking the Buspar? I take it and sometimes it helps a lot and other times it causes me some of the symptoms you describe especially if I take too much.

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to Starrlight

I’ve been taking it almost a year but he increased it. I’m cutting back to my old dose. I don’t understand why (when I was doing so good) that it was increased.

How long does it take to come out of your system?

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to Starrlight

Do you get shaky legs and heaviness feeling? Like you’re moving in slow motion? It freaks me out! Lol

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Starrlight in reply to BrownEyesBlue

Light headed heart racing shaky yes slow mo kind of like a jerking sensation in slow motion if that makes sense it’s really hard to explain

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to Starrlight

Yes! It’s really hard to explain. My brother said so it’s basically like a panic attack. Not really. But when I panic because of the feeling it just intensifies. And I’m scared.

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Starrlight in reply to BrownEyesBlue

When did you say this began happening to you?

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to Starrlight

About a week or so ago; my meds had been increased. I’m assuming it could be that but I cannot say for sure.

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needhelp2z in reply to BrownEyesBlue

I get shaky too. I have trembling all day. It also feels like my forearms are going to explode. Not sure if that is some of the symptoms you've been experiencing but that's what I have from the Busepione (sp ?)

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to needhelp2z

It’s brutal!

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13ga

hi BEBI...

i'd love to give you one of my long-winded multi-paragraph replies... but i'm not in a good place at the moment... just don't have it in me just now...

but i do want to say - i hear your pain; i share your pain...

i don't think checking your numbers is excessive - cause that let's you know your issue isn't physical - and helps you know where to focus your energy...

also want to say - you're not alone....

maybe i can add more if i find some moments myself... but you're not alone.

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witherrae

That sounds exactly like the beginning of one of my panic attacks. They're currently my biggest issue and I can't really offer anything helpful but you're definitely not alone. That's so weird that your doctor increased the buspirone for no reason. I've been taking it for 3 years now and I honestly don't think it's ever done anything good or bad but now I'm wondering if it might be exacerbating my anxiety.

I was in a similar situation to you, things were going pretty well, when my doctor decided she wanted to change my antidepressant for "heart problems" I have never even shown signs of having and she took me off an SSRI and put me on Wellbutrin which does nothing for serotonin so I had horrible withdrawals. Her obsession over my heart (pretty sure she had a patient pass away from undiagnosed heart problems and she feels responsible) gave me health anxiety and I started checking my blood pressure and pulse every hour on the hour. I eventually had to make myself stop that completely for a while before I started to check it once a week. I still feel nauseous and my heart rate speeds up whenever I think about taking it, it sucks.

The average elimination half-life of unchanged buspirone after single doses of 10 mg to 40 mg is about 2 to 3 hours. From rxlist.com you can Google a half life calculator, I think after a day it should be pretty much gone.

Some supplements can have interactions with certain medications. I'm sure if your doctor recommended the multivitamin it's probably fine but it couldn't hurt to check.

Are you currently in therapy?

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to witherrae

I am!

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witherrae in reply to BrownEyesBlue

Yay, have you told them yet? I've been working on other issues with mine but if I learn anything good for anxiety I'll let you know.

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BrownEyesBlue in reply to witherrae

I have. Working on it. Thanks. I’ll do the same.

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