Has anyone ever felt this way and advice on taking medication?

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Hi guys I hope everyone is staying safe and well and again I want to thank all of you for your continued support during these tough times. I’m writing today because after a really bad anxious period when my brother contracted the virus but I thankfully did not I still had sleepless nights full of none stop shaking and constant dread. I thought I had fluid in my lungs and couldn’t breathe had no appetite and endless energy. After suffering from anxiety and panic for years before this incident that left me unable to work or enjoy daily life. I have no decide for the second time to try medication, I’ve been prescribed Sertreline (50mg) and Propanol. But I feel no motivation to get better and take them it’s like I simply don’t care and also at the same think I don’t need them as well as to a certain extent feeling like I don’t want to get better. Has anyone side experienced this? Due to my health anxiety issues I do have a huge fear of taking medication which is part of it so I W’s wondering if anyone else experienced this or has any advice or experience with antidepressants? Thank you very much for reading I hope you all stay safe and well

[hypercat54]

I get this as sometimes it's the devil you know isn't it? I do know though that if you want to have a chance of a normal life you need to seriously think about taking the help offered.

Yes change is scary but not as scary as living the rest of your life as an anxious mess. If you don't start changing things then nothing will change.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to hypercat54]

Hi hypercat I hope you’re still staying safe and well, absolutely yeah it is the devil you know and I agree my family and close friends all believe I’ve stayed in this hyper anxious state for so long it’s normal for me and that’s why I don’t feel the urgency to change but I certainly do deep down know that taking the medication is the right thing to do

[hypercat54 in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

You can change it so good luck. I recommend therapy as well.

[Gentlespirit]

Hi I've taken medication and then been off and months or years later been on again. Sometimes medication isn't enough and yet counseling doesn't seem to be enough either. There are techniques to help manage symptoms yet how effective they are varies and so how long it may last to. Its an individual choice. I'm currently on medication again. I'm trying to change from the inside and to do what i can. Try. See how the medication helps and look into rekindling old hobbies or try new ones.

[bellak1 in reply to Gentlespirit]

Yes. I am same. Change from inside. Not wear a mask and seem good on the outside. Starts within.

[Gentlespirit in reply to bellak1]

Please please wear a mask to keep yourself and others safe.

[bellak1]

I use cannibas. Works fo me. A few fam members want me on pharm meds. I don't like them I tried it before. They have harrased me all of my life, trying to make my light and spirituality into a mental illness. I do suffer from ptsd, ocd, sad and major depressive disorder from living in trauma based environments, and from the people misunderstanding me and twisting my personality and gifts into something they see as evil. Puritans.. ugh lol. I am not sharing with them my experiences because they attack me mentally so I start questioning and doubting myself. they take pharm antidepressants, it works for them. They are not happy and do nothing to be happy, they take the pill to get through but I want to experience joy from the inside out. Pretty in pictures only doesn't cut it for me. I did take prescription meds that helped me during times of being in abusive relationships. They pretend they are happy.. I want to experience it.

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I’m sorry for the pain and anxiety. I hope you decide to see a doctor. There are a lot of different medication that might help you live a better life without having all the dread you are feeling