An awful day.

Well I just had one of the worst days I've had in a very long time. I'm so angry that I can barely even write about it. I'll keep it short. Basically, I spent the entire day with the fact that my friend is better than me in every way being rubbed in my face. That's not even the problem. The problem that it wasn't. It wasn't rubbed in my face. It was completely fine. I just have an inferiority complex now and I hate myself for it.

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I don't think it would be healthy though if the only thing I imagine on that punching bag is me.

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Actually painting was the root of the problem today. Also I hate exercise. Music won't change the fact that I'm inferior.

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I just play games but it's more of an addiction really and again, it won't change anything.

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Is there anything in your life that makes you happy? Are you grateful for anything in your life?

Your negativity is over the top. You shoot down every thing people try to post in support and advice. I’m not trying to be mean in the least, just calling it like I see it.

I truly wish you would consider talking to your parents, get back into therapy.

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I am also calling it as I see it. Is it really negativity if it's facts? There's nothing that truly makes me happy. I wouldn't say I'm grateful for the things I have, it's more like wishing someone else would have them because it's not like I'm doing anything with it. Also about my parents and therapy, if something hasn't work countless times, how am I supposed to expect it to work somehow? It's insanity by definition, doing the exact same thing over and over again and expecting things to change.

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You remind of a young man not too many years older than you that used to post here that struggled like yourself. I’m truly sorry that you are struggling and in so much pain. It truly breaks my heart to see such promising young men having hard times like this.

I do hope you get better.

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Yes, you are. Ok, so we're on the same page.

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

Well I will tell you what you are much better at than your friend, and everyone else in the world. That is being you. No one can ever beat you at that.

[Dragon3695 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah that is the definition of insanity. One thing to remember is therapists are hit and miss until you find the right one. It took me years before I found the first one that actually helped and when she left it took almost another year before I would my current one. Also keep in mind the only way a therapist can truly help you is if you open up and are willing to talk about everything bothering you when they listen to what they say. Trust me if you find the right one it will help.

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Are you thinking what I'm thinking? I have chills all of a sudden...

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I just posted about it. I’m wondering too. See my last comment.

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Just did. I'm gonna go cover up.

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Yep, I’ve done all I can here. Good to see you, hugs. 🤗🤗🤗

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Me too (for now). I want to know for sure that this isn't the same guy before I make any definite decisions. Right now, though, I really do not like where this is going.Good to see you too😊😊😊

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Already went through so many, it's no use.

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I’ve got a punching bag. It does help to release pent up anger and anxiety. Actually just running down the street does too, but this works too. Great suggestion,

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Hi again. I was looking over this thread and wanted to ask you something. You sound eerily similar to someone else we had on here. You haven't been here before? (This is not being mean; I'm just really quite curious). We went around and around in circles with this person. I want to try and help, but I would first like to know that I'm not dealing with the same person (because if so, then I know what the answer to every piece of advice will be -- to shoot it down). Again, I'm just curious. You are not his age, so I could be dead wrong.🙂🙂🙂

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I just joined a week ago I think? I posted when I joined then stopped posting for a few days. I started posting again yesterday. I'm sorry I'm going in circles with everyone, I just legitimately can not see any way my life can get better.

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Ok, I just had to make sure. Some people come back after awhile, so our concern that you were this guy was legitimate. That said, I apologize for falsely thinking this. We just really got exhausted trying to help him because he would not accept any of our words of advice. I cannot help much, but I do want to leave you with this piece of advice. I recommend that you talk to someone you trust. You deserve to feel better. You are also not inferior to anyone.🙂

[Lenamurzinajoy]

Feel complete despite of the uggliest matters! The opposer will be sorry then!

[dmt1121]

The posts below show you are hurting in a much bigger way than an inferiority complex. Seeing a therapist is good, if it's the right therapist. Exercising is good, if you need to raise or dissipate, your energy and painting is good to express emotion, when you have something to draw upon.

All of these things have their place but it is very hard to see or avail ourselves of them, when we are going in all directions at once and feeling everything at once. It causes confusion and misery. Whether our problems are from the abuse of others, or chemical imbalances in our brains, the result can be overwhelming and debilitating. It can make us unrecognizable to ourselves and others.

For me, the first step is getting myself calm, centered and in my body. By that, I mean that my emotional and psychic energy is not shooting out of me like a roman candle! I like to use online guided meditations on my phone or laptop with headphones to. There are a lot of meditations out there and you just keep going until you find one that suits you. I prefer ones on healing.

That is a place I go to as a reset. I t may just help me manage that moment or it may provide the clarity to take a step in the right direction, whether that's finding the right therapist, finding the right psychiatrist or finding the motivation to simple get out of the apartment and take a walk. I use it to "regroup" daily.

Maybe meditation is your thing or not but you can be happier, regardless. I hope you are able to reach out to people you know and ask for help in taking the first step to find what you need. It is one foot and one step at a time.

We are thinking of you!

[penguins123]

Please give yourself a break. You are human and the fact that you recognize unkind feelings you may have, is a sign that you are evolving into a more advanced person. Good for you!

[Tara52]

I have learned not to compare myself with others. We each have been designed as unique individuals with our own giftings. Maybe you have not recognized yours yet but they are still there! Try to remember even if it was a small thing someone complimented you for and a interest you have. Sometimes because of dysfunctional families like I have had no one encouraged or helped you develop them. I will pray and you pray too for God to uncover them. Keep negative people out of your life. This guy you mentioned is not a positive influence. "Bad company corrupts good character". Hugs!🙂💗

[Pel3749]

Hi Roko, hoping that you are doing better. You are not inferior to your friend, you are you! I talk to people that I like and they all have some issues, you are no different. We are here for you. Many people would like to open up but are unsure. Please try a different therapist with a different view and you may be surprised. My therapist became my friend that I can tell anything to and has helped .Keep in touch and God bless.

[Sunshine1968]

Well Roko, there is only one person who knows you best, that person is you. Often others try to prove themselves they are better than others because they feel unsecured, inferior or jealous and it's not worth to feel inferior to them.