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I've been suffering from PAWS (post acute withdrawal.symptoms from antidepressant more than 2 years). I've improved a lot but I'm still not ok.

I don't know why ? but I feel so impatient and irritable today. I'm trying to be calm but its so difficult. I have no anti-anxiety med. I called a war mline but it doesn't help me much.

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Thank you for reaching out. I feel so alone. Hope you're doing ok. HUGS

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Thank you. You're helping me right now. I'm alone with 2 cats. It's very difficult

I’m sorry you’re having a hard time. What symptoms are you experiencing? I’m also going through this.

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Hello

Thank you for reaching out. Are you going through withdrawals too? It's very hard....I know it well. What symptoms are you suffering? I'm better but I feel im not who I used to be. But I went through every single horrible withdrawal symptoms.

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Yes, it’s been 8 weeks since I stopped. I had dizziness, nausea, loss of appetite, terrible middle of the night panic attacks, jumpy legs, jittery eyes. Right now, my anxiety has gotten worse and I’m still experiencing nausea almost every day. What about you?

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I experienced everything that you mentioned before. It takes time for those symptoms to subside. Are you on any med right now?

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I’m not on anything at all. I’m beginning to worry that it’s never going to get better.

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Oh ok. I didn't take anything for a year then I started taking Prozac.

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How did you do when you were off of the pills for a year?

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It was terrible ....so I reinstated . I think it started working 6 or 7 months after I started. That's why I'm doing better now but I still cannot reach my previous level. I'm scared if I would reach my normal self again....wondering if my long term use of Lexaoro may have destroyed my brain function totally.

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My doc was in the process of switching me from Effexor to Lexapro and that’s when I had a horrible reaction. I quit Effexor at 37.5 mg and Lexapro at 5mg. When I quit it all, it got even worse. I’m glad you’re feeling better. When you say you don’t know if you can reach your previous level, what do you mean?

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I mean....I'm wondering if I can get back to myself again...I'm so scared.

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Are you having more good days than bad lately?

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I used to have so many bad days but I rarely have a bad day like this recently even if I'm not totally normal yet ....so I'm scared.

How about you?

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I’m glad you have mostly good days. Right now, every day isn’t great. I’m starting to ruminate again, which I haven’t done for a long time. I’m worrying about the nausea I have every day and wonder if there’s something wrong with me beyond anxiety. I have health anxiety and it’s getting bad. I just want to crawl out of my skin.

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I understand what you're going through since I had to go through terrible withdrawal symptoms. I thought I'll go crazy. You're not alone.

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Thank you. I’m hoping for better days for both of us. 🙏♥️

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Me too. I'm fighting everyday and worrying about if I can get over this weird condition. Its terribly hard but I have no other choice right now. How's your condition today?

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I had a good night with no panic attacks and my nausea isn’t too bad today. How are you feeling?

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It sounds good you had no panic attack at night. I used to have dissociative panic attacks but no more. It was scary. I've never suffered nausea but I had no appetite while suffering severe withdrawal sxs.

I'm doing the same. I felt somewhat agitated in the morning but it's gone after I ate a lot.

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I’m glad you’re no longer having the panic attacks. They are really scary. Are you able to get outside and take walks? I find that being out with my dog has really helped. I need to distract myself as much as possible.

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I drive, go for a walk and go grocery shopping now. I was unable to do anything for a quite bit of time. I didn't push myself. Yes I agree with you....only what we can do is to distract ourselves since we cannot control our condition.

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Do you find you feel worse in the evening? I do. The darkness gets to me.

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Darkness helps me....I mean I feel better toward evening. Morning is the worst for me.

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I went through withdrawal from Tramadol. It took 8 weeks to wean off and about 3 more weeks to get over symptoms. I did a lot of prayer in that time. I asked God to give me a way to relive my symptoms. Found other things to focus on and that helped. I played some easy mindless games, binged watched TV series, watched YouTube videos. I felt like keeping my mind on everything I could besides my symptoms helped. I will pray God will give you the right path to see you though, and will put your mind at ease. Take care, God bless. Message me if you'd like.

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Thank you for reaching out. Yes I watch YouTube videos, cook my meals and play easy games......to try not to focus on my weird symptoms. Hope you're doing ok now.

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I'm doing better thank you. One day at a time. Just remember, try not to look at the big picture. Just focus on now, this day. Then once you make it through that, thank God, and ask to make it through the next day. And so forth. Before you know it, It's over and done and you'll wonder where did the time go. You got this. Hang in there!❤️🙏❤️

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Thank you fir a warm advice and support . It means a lot to me. I'm not feeling so bad e everyday but today is a very hard day.

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Praying that each day is easier for you.

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Thank you so much

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