Reality check.

[Rudolph26]

Sometimes I think that’s why I write most times, because I just want a reality check to see if I’ve gone crazy or if my reactions are normal. You ever feel like that when you write on here?

What’s funny is that most times I end up realising that my reactions are completely rational. Sure, I overthink some things but my reactions are still normal. So, I guess I’m not doing so bad with all of this, you know? Its kinda nice to see I’m making progress in some areas. I’m still lacking in some things though.

For example, I realised today that I just cant do conversation that have a time limit. Its because it take my brain hours to process things. So, if we are having a five minute conversation it will feel superficial because I will put the real stuff on hold until we can really sit down and talk. I also realised I can only do superficial conversations for so long. I prefer real talk. Not just the “nice day” “how are you” pleasantry exchanges. I have more in-depth conversations with my customers in retail. If our conversations don’t grow past that then you feel like a stranger to me.

Am I the only one? Surely not...

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Hmm. Interesting concept. I love to talk and will do so until I can't anymore. And I still want to talk! I am an extroverted feeler. I feel like I get better ideas and more connected to myself when I talk with others. I love communicating too.

[KailaLili]

I miss those deep rooted connections and conversations...seems so lacking lately. People seem so on the go and I often feel like people are thinking of what’s next instead of being in the present. I don’t like small talk either...

[Rudolph26 in reply to KailaLili]

Exactly. Time isn’t valued and people aren’t valued because they are afraid to value someone and be hurt. Fact is though, not valuing anything can be twice as damaging. Losing someone or something that held no value can be devistating because you realise it meant nothing to begin with, so your life feels empty. This is the core reason as to why I hate small take and superficial friendships/ connections.

[Reading_Rando]

I think that's incredibly normal. I have a theory that we don't allow ourselves to feel things untill someone else gives us permission (validates us) by exspressing the same thing. I don't know why this is.

[Maggiedog123]

I love conversations about history, life, religion, just about anything where there's an exchange of ideas and the possibility of learning something new. Small talk is okay for a while if I;m just checking in on somebody.

[Rudolph26 in reply to Maggiedog123]

Couldn’t agree more