Therapy

Well, my school therapist does not have any appointments next week, so I will have to wait until the week after to talk to someone. I am trying someone new, outside of the school, so that I can go multiple times a week. I am currently struggling to write a paper at the library while constantly thinking about her. She tries to post a lot of the things that she is doing, which I do not look at but hear from people and it makes me feel off because she's out there having the time of her life while I am miserable and yearning for her. I cannot tell if she is coping with the end of our relationship that way or what and its killing me. This paper will take some effort to write because my mind is going in circles, but I know I can do it. Why can't I stop thinking about her and all the fun things we had planned together? She's one person and I know that I love her but she is not perfect. I need to solidify that in my head. I'm wasting my life. I'm scared that I am going to have a break down tonight.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Oh no you won’t. There will be no breakdowns. Some ppl hurt bad at the beginning. Some ppl hurt bad in a few months. Everyone grieves different.

Your job right now is to find a focal point while you write your paper. I like to watch sports; especially hockey. YouTube is great for that.

She is not your focal point. What do you like? What’s your favorite thing? Don’t say her! That’s your focal point while you do your paper.

No breakdown. She may be worthy but you don’t have the time. I want a good grade on this paper. Tell me what your focal point is.

You can do this. I know you can.

Doaty💛

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thank you I like basketball and working out. Hey maybe I’ll go for a run after I finish this paper and clear my head more. You’re very kind. Thank you for all of your support, it means the world to me

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Hidden]

Okay that’s great! I used to run. I might go for a walk now though. Haha! If you get hung up on your paper doodle a picture of you as a stick figure running. 😆. Let’s get this done. ⭐️💪🥇

[CatIsMyCopilot]

I know what it's like to have that obsessive type of brain. So difficult. Writing your paper will be good for you, as it will necessarily divert your focus somewhat. (For me, unfortunately I'm obsessing about work, so diverting with work isn't possible.)

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to CatIsMyCopilot]

That was always my problem. That’s another site though for me I think. 😁

[CatIsMyCopilot in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

It's pretty challenging, unfortunately. If you don't mind my asking: what do you mean by "another site"? Another support group? I'm always interested to hear what's helping others.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to CatIsMyCopilot]

I’d need to find something for workaholics. I’m not ready to tackle that yet.

[56artist_]

Just remember all the things your therapist told u and listen to yourself if the advice she has give is good use it as your armor to put on daily and fight be strong a true soldier do not give up fighting for you I do this daily recovering from 40 yrs anorexia recovered recently but not easy so I recall everything my therapist told me 7 yrs now and very good friend all those yrs to stay recovered this is my armor and she gave it to me het gift to me was life for I wad dying now living

[NeuronerdDoaty]

How’s your day ?

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

I’m alright. Mind is really cloudy and this morning was very tough but I’m going to visit another school to see some friends. Just going in circles in my head about my ex who will be there. She contacted me today but I didn’t respond. How is your day?

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Hidden]

I’m so glad you didn’t contact her. Have fun with your friends. My day is better now. You told me good news. And the mom voice comes out and says ‘be safe’!

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Sorry it took so long to get back to you. 💛

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

It’s very much okay! No fault! Thank you for helping me. Means the world to me