Wishing I was happy

[DancingUkulele]

Hi everyone, I’m new here. I haven’t been myself for a while now- this hasn’t happened for a few years. I was doing really well and then suddenly I wasn’t towards the end of this past summer. I don’t find joy in things I usually do. And I don’t find motivation to do things I normally do regularly and love. I’ve had a therapist since August and I started taking an anti-depressant in November. I’m in a relationship that may or may not be part of the unhappiness. I’m not sure if I’m unhappy because of the relationship or I’m unhappy for other reasons and it’s bringing out the worst in me in the relationship. I want to be happy. Sometimes I wake up and say: I’m sick of feeling this way and I’d just rather be happy. And then I try to embrace that sentiment the entire day but it never works. I’m not sure where else to turn. We also recently moved and I don’t have any friends close by and I’ve been unemployed for a few months. My new job starts in January. We just celebrate the holidays with family and I should’ve been so happy and grateful to be able to be around loved ones during these unprecedented times. I really just wish I woke up everyday and sincerely wanted to enjoy the day. Life is so precious. I should be grateful. I should be thankful. But I’m simply not and I don’t know how to get there anymore. Thank you all for reading and for any advice you can give.

[Bigneil1]

Feel pretty much in the same boat as you, just started antidepressants and hoping they help. Just trying to take one day at a time and setting myself small targets to do things. Feeling really low today and I don't know if it's grief or anxiety about having to go shopping tomorrow or going back to work. Would love advice too, I just don't want to feel like this anymore

[Celtic27]

Hi there and welcome to the group you sound as if your unsure of several thing right now I would have thought your therapist would be the best person to see do you see them on a regular basis! When you go are you totally honest about everything because they may pick up on what's the problem sometimes it takes someone else to help you! What medication are you taking and how long have you been taking it! Have you tried taking to your family about how you are feeling? I wish you all the best and I hope things improve for you soon david

[Agora1]

Hi DancingUkulele As Celtic27 stated, you do have a lot going on right now. Put that

together with the world situation and it can be overwhelming. It is true that life is precious

and we need to find happiness with being grateful for things we do have in life

Focusing on the positive and not all the negatives can give you some sense in what life is all about.

I keep a book on my desk which I refer to quite often. "Dancing in the Rain" by Gallagher

It's a book of Gratitude. During hard times, we tend to forget all we have to be thankful and grateful for. I'm sure it's on YouTube. Welcoming you to a great forum xx

[Bluediamond50]

I am moving in March to So Carolina. I only know one person and they are very busy with their own life. I ,have anxiety that I wont find any ,friends that understand my health issues and are willing to overlook them.

[FearIsALiar]

Welcome to the group 💞💞

[FearIsALiar]

Could you possibly make a pros & cons list of your relationship to rule out whether that is causing you to be unhappy?