I try, and thats all I can do for now

[Amatrick7039]

Today is the day in my house where everyone runs around to get ready. There's food to be made, clothes ro find and presents that still need to be wrapped. Its suppose to be a happy time but never turns out that way. Something cant be found or someone had a melt down. This year I've not been able to do much which makes me frustrated. Yesterday I got through my first anxiety attack.all by myself and today my second. I feel like im making progress and it makes me so happy. But nervous at the same time. Last year I felt like I ruined Christmas I was in the e.r. and everyone waited for me to get there. All I can do is try, try not to think about the next one, try not freak out. Try is all I got. Merry Christmas 🎅 to everyone out there that has said such kind words to help me through this and to make me feel like I'm not so all alone.

[Hidden]

I hear you. I had a bit of a meltdown earlier this evening, got a little stressed making the dinner and got upset over something rather stupid, but then me and the other person involved both apologized and everything turned out all right. It can be difficult sometimes not to lose your cool. Sometimes I will say something and then try to take it back but I know I can't. Christmas really isn't my favorite time of year.

[Amatrick7039 in reply to Hidden]

Well I fought that feeling the entire night until after presents were opened and then I lost it. I couldn't breath freakin out. And with all the kids running around I felt so stupid. I tried breathing (and still am) i really wish this feeling would just go away. No quiet ace to calm. People say stupid shit all the time sometimes I think they do it on purpose just to see what you will do. I try to always take the high road and not say anything but well...sometimes you just gotta speak up. Hope your not ended well.

[Bigbrighteyes96]

Easy for this time of year to be anxiety inducing and overwhelming... well done on getting through anxiety attacks by yourself and you will make it through the next one. Stay strong, have and have a lovely christmas.

[Amatrick7039 in reply to Bigbrighteyes96]

Thank you . Only one more Christmas to do tomorrow and I'm done till next year! Thank god

[Bigbrighteyes96 in reply to Amatrick7039]

You're welcome