Fed up now

[Tillymay]

I’m stressed enough having a real bad day!!!! And I keep being logged out of here.I thought this is a place that’s not meant to stress us xxx

[Musicever]

Me too! I am always being logged out so that's why it takes me long time to check msg and notification here...sometimes I want to use but more inconvenient

[Musicever]

Only sometimes I feel not to use it because of it but most of the time I want to use whenever I can and want to and now I am used to it already not so disgusted already but I was at first

[Hidden]

That's happening to me too. I have no idea why

[Bigneil1]

Just happened to me for the first time. Don't you just love technology. 😁

[Tillymay in reply to Bigneil1]

Oh bigneil1 I do hope your ok I’m having such a bad day! Just feel so low.How are you? Xx

[Bigneil1]

A bit up and down to be honest. Trying to sort some of my dad's financial stuff out. Finding it hard to get hold of people because of this pandemic. Causing a bit of anxiety. Anyway enough about me, what's happening with you ? Why has your day been so bad ? I hope you have found the time to eat.

[Tillymay in reply to Bigneil1]

You are so thoughtful with all what you are going through you always find time to ask how others are.I would be going out of my mind if I was in your shoes.I just don’t know how your doing it.well I had a good day yesterday,but I woke at 4am the morning and my stomach was killing me with knotted pains and sickness.Im tired and so drained of life at the moment.and I just don’t know what to do xxxx

[Bigneil1 in reply to Tillymay]

Have you spoken to your doctor about this, is this anxiety related ?

[Tillymay in reply to Bigneil1]

No I can’t get a appointment at the moment and my gp is useless xx

[Bigneil1]

I feel so much for you. You have a lot on your plate and I wish I could do more to help other than lend a sympathetic ear. How old are your children?

[Tillymay in reply to Bigneil1]

One is 11 and the other is 14.Just being there is good for me.Its hard when you have no one.I feel I’m living for everyone around me and not myself.But I have no confidence anymore,so I wouldn’t know what to do with my life anyway.I have no interest in anything.xxx how are you getting on with sorting your dads belongings xxx

[Bigneil1 in reply to Tillymay]

Slowly getting there, doing it bit by bit. Dreading telling the local housing authority as then the process begins of finding somewhere to live. Do the children understand that mum isn't very well or do you try to hide it ? What did you like doing when you were younger, can you remember things and times you really enjoyed.

[Tillymay in reply to Bigneil1]

Oh I really feel for you with the housing.Its bad enough what your going through without having to leave your home.I hide it from my children I don’t want them to know I’m ill.I can’t remember what I liked doing it’s such along time ago.But also I haven’t got confidence anymore to mix very well.xx

[Bigneil1 in reply to Tillymay]

I understand that, been working for home for 6 months and almost felt like I have withdrawn into my shell. Always find it hard to make friends, confidence has always been fragile and take everything to heart. Always feel more confident talking to people online as I feel awkward in a lot of social environments. A lot of things I enjoyed now I feel like i do them out of habit. Please be assured that people do care about you, if you want to talk please just let me or others know. I would love to wave a magic wand and get rid of all of our problems. In the meantime we just need to be there for each other. xxx

[Tillymay in reply to Bigneil1]

Thank you so much your in my prayers for better days xx

[Bigneil1 in reply to Tillymay]

You too. Take care xxx

[Hidden]

Hi Tilly, sorry you’re having a bad day! I hope your day takes a turn for the better.

[Tillymay in reply to Hidden]

I wish xx