very sad once again

[iamyukii]

as always just getting upset over things that i feel i shouldn’t be upset about. i remember when my sister was getting her license for the first time and how my mom and my mother’s boyfriend were very supportive over it. took her to all over dmv appointments. they paid for her driving lessons and everything. even up to the point where my sister acted very spoiled about getting her new car saying that if they didn’t put the down payment for her car she would “never speak” to my mom or her boyfriend ever again. as always she got what she wanted and my mothers boyfriend nearly paid almost the whole car that day.

it upsets me because i never got this support at all. even when i was going to take my driving test my mom doubted about me getting the test right. i don’t understand what’s with all the doubt on everything i do. it gets me so upset. i know they don’t owe me anything but still, it just hurts that i still get treated as the scapegoat of my family.

idk, maybe im not allowed to feel this way but, what i do know is that i feel a lot of hurt and constant rejection from everyone.

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

Hi. You have every right to feel what you feel and to be upset about whatever is bothering you, whether it’s about your sister in this case or for any other reason. Don’t fight your feelings. Honor them. Is it possible to sit down and talk with your Mom about how her apparent favoritism has made you feel hurt? And then bring her boyfriend into it if it seems like that would help? I’m suggesting Mom first because she’s, well, your Mom. And it’s less complicated to start with just her. That’s just my opinion. Do what you feel is right. Of course you may harbor resentment toward your sister but this is not her fault. The main thing is never beat yourself up for how you feel. To feel is to heal and you deserve that.