dark place

I am at an all-time low. I have PPMS (worst of the MS family) and was diagnosed 2/18. My husband was great at soothing my worries of the future etc. One day at a time and all that. "we'll get through it together". I trusted him as he's been my rock forever. We've been married 40 years. Recently, maybe 8-10 months, I don't know for sure he has been angry at random things. His anger is escalating . Little silly, petty things he is off the charts angry. Last night those 40 years I trust to he would be there to take care of me are gone. No need for details. I felt/feel humiliated, disrespected, disgusting in appearance ( wow, bullseye ) stupid (that's an oldie) crazy....on and on and on. Now what do I do? I live in a tiny ranch. I no longer am able to drive . I am so f-cking disappointed, lost and hurt. Anxiety is the worst thing for people with MS. My anxiety wasstill is off the charts. Absolutely no regard for me and anxiety. That is not love.

Does anyone have any advice or experienced something similar ?

[AnxM]

Robbie2499, my friend, I’m so sorry that you’re hurting so much. ((Hugs))

I know you’re devastated. At this moment, the only way you can help yourself is to breathe deeply and calm your nervous system. Something that’s hard to do when we need it most.

If you would like me to recommend a guided

meditation that works for me, let me know.

Breathe.... in.... out....

[DIsneyQueen]

Robbie2499, I am so sorry to hear your pain which is evident in your post. All I can offer is my prayers and to tell you that you will make it through this. I too have PPMS and have days where nothing works and I just want to lie in a ball on the floor and give up. Then I remember who I belong to (God) and somehow I find the strength to go on. We are stronger than this disease sister. IT is ugly, we are not. Hang in there and you will get through this, like the previous response stated, start just by breathing in and out. God Bless You

[Hb2003]

I am so sorry that your suffering we are here for you .

[Hidden in reply to Hb2003]

Thank you! I so appreciate your caring response. Things are not so dark anymore. That's the cool thing about time....

[Hb2003 in reply to Hidden]

Thank goodness ☺️