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How can I be such a different person in the evenings.

As soon as I wake up the anxiety kicks in and lasts all day until about 7pm,then bam it’s gone.

Anyone else suffer like this

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Greenswimmer13

I wake up with it and it lasts all day and night. I’ve been in a vicious cycle for months now. I have learned from therapy and from personal experience in the past, that it can go down at night because you’re not faced with a whole day ahead of you.

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Whiskers16 in reply to Greenswimmer13

How do you get through the day

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to Whiskers16

Right now, minute by minute. I honestly want to give up, but I have two children who need me. My youngest is a year and a half, so I have no choice but to function enough to take care of him. Nothing is working though. Using “distress tolerance skills” or any non-med skills (including exercise), isn’t working to bring it down.

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Someone mentioned try vitamin D3 or b12. Ask your doctor about your levels. I use 5 htp it helps some and meds from doctor.

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to

I just recently saw that (5htp) as an ingredient in a calming supplement. What is it, and does it help with the anxiety?

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From webmd website

Overview Information

5-HTP (5-hydroxytryptophan) is a chemical by-product of the protein building block L-tryptophan. It is also produced commercially from the seeds of an African plant known as Griffonia simplicifolia.

It took me some time to get used to it. Be careful there are side effects with heart issues. Ask your doctor first. I get it at dollar general.

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Okay, good to know. Thank you.

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Downandout123

This is so terrible to have to live through. I understand that horrible anxiety feeling.☹ I read in your profile that meds are not working now. Have you been on Xanax for anxiety?

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to Downandout123

I have been on Xanax and other benzodiazepines for my anxiety in the past, but my current psychiatrist won’t prescribe me anything like that because it can be addictive. She doesn’t understand that I’m barely holding on.

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Downandout123 in reply to Greenswimmer13

I'm so sorry for that. I don't know what I would do without Xanax. And sometimes I get SOOO anxious that it barely does anything. But breathing techniques, meditation-nothing natural works for me.

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to Downandout123

I’m sorry that you struggle with it so much too. When it’s so high that anxiety meds don’t work, and nothing else is working, it’s torture. What do you do when your Xanax doesn’t work?

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Downandout123 in reply to Greenswimmer13

Honestly, I try to take more. My np has me rationed to 2 a day. Sometimes it gets so bad that I feel like my heart is going to beat through my chest. I get so afraid because I think something is going to happen.

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Whiskers16 in reply to Downandout123

That’s me every day at some point then there’s the sweats, tingling arms etc no let up during the day

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Downandout123 in reply to Whiskers16

That's absolutely AWFUL.☹ So sorry.

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Zhangliqun in reply to Greenswimmer13

At least for night time, ask your doc about Trazadone. It's non-addictive and it has the side effect of drowsiness that is a drawback for daytime but a bonus for night. Very effective on anxiety.

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Whiskers16 in reply to Downandout123

I dm in the uk I assume Xanax is like diazepam.. I do take 5mg before bed eith magnesium which helps me sleep. I did try 5 mg 3 times a day but it wasn’t lasting long enough to get round to the next one and she said That’s the mist I could take in 1 day

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Downandout123 in reply to Whiskers16

But the diazepam is helping at least a little bit during the day?

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Whiskers16 in reply to Downandout123

I’m only allowed 1 a day at night... if I get really desperate I take a half tablet during the day. I know I should but sometimes it’s the only thing that gets me through

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Downandout123 in reply to Whiskers16

You need more. You can't live like that day in and day out. I think these doctors who prescribe medication need to feel what we go through, and THEN make a decision about how much we can have. I'm not looking to be on a high all the time. I JUST WANT TO FEEL NORMAL!!!😞

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to Downandout123

Oh my gosh, yes! I’ve wished that my psychiatrist could feel what I live with everyday, and then maybe she would actually prescribe me something for my anxiety. She says benzodiazepines are addictive, but like you, I’m not looking to get high, just feel normal. I feel suicidal going through this, how could anxiety meds be worse?!

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Downandout123 in reply to Greenswimmer13

How terrible.☹ You need to keep telling her that you feel.suicidal. SOMETHING has to change!!

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to Downandout123

I’m looking for a new psychiatrist because she just isn’t hearing me and has her mind made up about my treatment.

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Downandout123 in reply to Greenswimmer13

Good for you!! I have also tried over the counter things that friends recommended to me, to calm my nerves and anxiety. NOTHING worked!😣

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Whiskers16 in reply to Downandout123

I told my gp that I felt suicidal a few times she just told me to think of my daughter!!’I’m Not asking for the world just to be able to work and go outside on my own

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Downandout123 in reply to Whiskers16

I just DON'T understand that reply from her!! Can you go right outside your house on your own, on a porch, or in a yard?

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Whiskers16 in reply to Downandout123

I go out in my garden but struggle to go for a walk or the shop on my own

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Downandout123 in reply to Whiskers16

Well,at least I'm glad to know that you are able to get some fresh air and sunshine when the weather permits.

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bonkers65

That's exactly how mine does. I feel like crap when I first get up too. I tell myself "Here we go again" Then at night it eases up some.

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Whiskers16 in reply to bonkers65

How do you deal with the day

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bonkers65 in reply to Whiskers16

I really don't know. I just do. I try to find something to do I guess which is hard because I really don't want to do anything.

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to bonkers65

Has it been going on for awhile for you too?

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bonkers65 in reply to Greenswimmer13

Off and on my entire life. It has gone into a kind of remission at times but it always comes back.

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to bonkers65

Same with me, but mine has been worse this year than I can ever remember.

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Purpletara

I'm the complete opposite. Get up, all ok then as soon as it starts to get dark bam it's depression and anxiety central. Can't settle to read or watch tv and my bedroom has become a battleground. Keep telling myself nothing lasts but this is going on forever!

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to Purpletara

I know exactly how you feel about it going on forever. I keep wondering how it could possibly go on like this for months.

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Whiskers16 in reply to Greenswimmer13

That’s exactly how I feel been like this since July. Have always suffered but not this bad

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Downandout123 in reply to Whiskers16

Me too!!! Well I've always suffered from depression and anxiety, but it wasn't until a few months ago that the panic started as soon as I got up. I work 5 days a week, and the anxiety is definitely there at work, but for some reason, when I'm off on the weekends, it attacks me the minute I open my eyes. I can't figure it out for the life of me!!

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Whiskers16 in reply to Downandout123

I wish I could work, been off now for over 4 months frightened I won’t get back

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zenmikho in reply to Purpletara

So interesting how we are all so different. You must be a morning person. It's official name is called a Lark Chronotype. I make a comment below to Whiskers16 explain a little more. You might also enjoy this YouTube video from a sleep specialist youtu.be/ht5K_3H0Xc0

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zenmikho

Hi Whiskers16, have you heard of our sleep patterns? Amazingly, some people are morning people or night people, and a select few are actually both and neither. But most people fit into either morning or night. I watched an amazing YouTube video discussion on it. So interesting. The discussion was on sleep and the patterns around sleep, conducted by a sleep specialist. Here is the link if you would like to know more, it just might explain why you are feeling anxious in the mornings. youtu.be/ht5K_3H0Xc0 I hope this helps.

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Whiskers16 in reply to zenmikho

I’ve been told it’s because some chemical builds up over night but I’ll watch this thank you

I know how you feel. I used to get horrible depression and anxiety.

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Downandout123 in reply to

What has helped you?

in reply to Downandout123

I found friends who would let me be myself and a sport that has really helped me let go of anxiety

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Basically stuff to live for

So sorry you are going through this. Hugs

Feel like this all the time.

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to

You mean you feel anxious all the time?

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I have said most of the time. Sorry.

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Greenswimmer13 in reply to

No, not at all. I wasn’t sure if you were referring to anxiety or something else.

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Whiskers16 in reply to Greenswimmer13

I am all the time

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