Waiting and waiting

[SSMA]

Hi. My partner's father is in coma after a brain surgery after a bad accident. I am physically away as I live in a different city. I love my partner. I am there through the tears as he is a single child and is going through a tough phase. I miss him. Terribly. I am waiting to speak to him. Once. I miss him a lot. He is in pain and that's paining me. I am trying to be as strong as I can, but not being able to talk and share with him is taking its silent toll. I need to speak. To anyone. It's painful. Bad enough to go through anxiety and my medication has just been tapered down.

I don't know how to get through this.

[Hidden]

I'm here. Sorry you two are going through this. Will pray for the father.

[SSMA in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Melhall. Means a ton. This distance is horrible. I can't be with my partner. My sleep is messed up. It's 2:30AM in my part of the world. I keep thinking of my partner. I took my meds by 1030PM. But here I am wide awake.

[Booklover0219]

I’m very sorry. I hope you can get some rest. It’s hard to be stressed out without any sleep. Warm hugs and best wishes.

[SSMA in reply to Booklover0219]

Thank you Booklover0219. I hope the same too. Coming to this platform is my only resort. I can only thank you all for love.

[Booklover0219 in reply to SSMA]

I know how that feels, when you feel you’ve reached your last resort. Just hang in there a little longer.

[SSMA in reply to Booklover0219]

Thank you. I'll keep trying

[Starrlight]

I’m so sorry. Keep hanging in there keeping strength. Have you tried melatonin or Benadryl for sleep?

[SSMA in reply to Starrlight]

I am on clonezepam for sleep along with estilopram and oxcarbazapine for my depression and anxiety.

But nothing seems to be working.

It's exhausting me.

[Starrlight in reply to SSMA]

Things will get better. After every difficulty comes ease.

[SSMA in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you

[Starrlight in reply to SSMA]

Sorry you are hurting right now. How’s today treating you?

[SSMA in reply to Starrlight]

Sorry, been away. It's taking it's toll

Hanging in there

[Kat63]

I know it hurts. I hope things get better.

[SSMA in reply to Kat63]

Thank you for your message. Makes me want to hang on.

[SSMA]

Thanks a ton community. These messages do make me feel better. Am pretty much on my own in my head. The situation is extremely frustrating what with the distance and helplessness. I am of course wondering if am selfish that I am thinking this way when my partner is going through a crisis.

I can only hope for the best.

[kenster1]

hi sorry to hear this news I hope the surgery went well and that he makes a good recovery.

[SSMA in reply to kenster1]

We are waiting for him to get conscious. Praying and hanging on.