Hiding out

[HopeandFaith100]

I’m so debilitated by anxiety and paranoia. When I go out of the house I start to feel like nothing’s real. I feel like I am creating my own reality and I feel so alone. I don’t know anyone and don’t know who to trust. I just want to stay in bed and hide.

[Hope1410]

In the past I’ve had paranoia with my anxiety. It is a horrible feeling and you are not alone. Talking with a therapist and the right medications helped me, maybe give that a try?

[HopeandFaith100 in reply to Hope1410]

I don’t know why I keep procrastinating about seeing a Behavioral Therapist, but I think it’s because I’m in so much doubt. I think you have to believe something will help before it actually helps.

[FearIsALiar]

Derealization / depersonalization is what this is called. You’re definitely not alone. I struggle with this as well if I’m feeling super stressed out. I know the feeling, I often feel alone as well and it’s not easy trusting others. I stay in bed a lot too.

[Hatelife34]

I. Feel the same way I have this crushing feeling like something bade going happen I haven’t left my house in months since I’ve went thru a tramantic experience it feels like everything around me is fake☹️

[HopeandFaith100]

Yes. It is such a struggle. Processing abuse and trauma can take a lifetime. It’s so hard to accept such injustices. I ask “why God?” Why do I deserve this burden? Am I being punished for something I did in a past life? Is my test about forgiveness because it sure is hard to forgive people that tried really hard to ruin my life. But as they say, “time heals all wounds.” I realize the people that hurt me weren’t even consciously targeting me, they were dealing with their own insecurities and I was conveniently available to receive their anger and frustration. And being unable to defend myself, they took advantage. You and me are innocent victims. We need to be kind to ourselves and stop blaming ourselves.