What now?

[AK0424]

I have been trying to get through this. Keeping it all inside. But I'm tired. I'm tired of holding it in. I'm tired of feeling like no one cares. I'm tired of feeling like everyone's saying "ugh we gotta hear this again". I'm tired of months of not sleeping well. I'm tired of being in pain (which could be for the rest of my life thanks to a car accident last year). I want to tell someone. I want someone to just randomly text or whatnot and check on my. I want to feel wanted. I want to feel needed. I want to know that people miss me. I worry about people. I check up on people. I miss people. I hate this anxiety. I hate feeling not good enough.

[Luna-blade]

Dear friend do not feel this way because you are not alone. I suffer too from this from loneliness from feeling wanted from feeling cared about and looked after. I care about others and take care of my dad who caused me deep soul and mind damage for the rest of my life. But what can I do? I have to keep fighting because surrendering means I was defeated by evil. Be sure that God loves you and cares about you and lots of people here care about each other and share each other’s pain. The pandemic is worsening things and increasing the anxiety and impatience; however, always set your mind on a hopeful thought 💭 that you would like to concretize and make happen! I love you and care about you hugs 🤗

[Hidden]

AKO

You mention being in a car accident, that could be part of your Mental Health Concerns. We would listen and advise here. Part of my problem is I am disabled and I need to control my pain and past trauma. You need to spit out your worries and fears and learn how to control your worries and concerns.

Most people clam up when approached especially if our problems are mental health and possibly disability. Some it is important you take control of these illnesses. Have you talked to your GP regards your problems a course of CBT MAY Help You. Although it is up to you to help yourself to move on

Whatever you decide I am always here to talk, if you want to talk private put my name in on chat and that will keep it personal

[Hidden]

I understand and I care. I have no answers, but I get it. And you're just as important as anyone else.

[0laf]

Sure.. you are loved and cared for.First, BEING ALIVE means you are here and loved by GOD and for a reason too. These feelings are not you . You are much more .

[Kristinaalso]

I’m sorry your feeling so bad... sending you positive thoughts.. you have many people who care about you and need you it’s this major Depression that causes many of those feelings your talking about.. even when ones in a room full of people and is having a major depression episode ( or whatever you wanna call it a funk), you feel lonely disconnected .. speaking to people who understand this illness and people that have empathy and understand the depths of despair it can take you is important the last thing you need to hear is they don’t want to hear about your feelings again.. I recall in high school a friend saying that to me when I was just trying to save myself and my dad refused to let me go to the doctor .. I tried but was too young and they couldn’t treat me but I was suffering like you and it sucks .. you have people here who are ready to listen and you will be heard.. I wish you the best and you will feel better I promise ... peace to you my friend!

[Lazy_dog_lover]

AKO, You are not just trying to get through this, you ARE getting through this. Do you have a therapist or group that you can vent to that are not family or friends? At this point in 2020, everyone is stressed. Try not to pile more on. I have lost friends when I did that.

I found great therapists over the years. I watch a great guy on Facebook Live. I vent, here, in HU. I do as much physical activity as possible. I, too, had a car accident that will forever change me. I am heading towards a second foot surgery in January. (Broken sternum, both forearm bones in my dominant right arm, torn rotator cuff, and I shattered my heal right off). I resent the other driver taking up two years of my life with no guarantees of healing to my satisfaction.

Do you have any hobbies to take your mind off of things? Does seeing family over the holidays make things worse? If so, I suggest short visits. I always had a dog sitting job, so I had an excuse to take a timeout to go feed and walk the dog, do some huggy, fur-fix loving on her, and then head back for dessert and a card game.

You’ve got this. AND you are worth it.

[Catlady40]

I'm here with you