A step forward, a step back.

To be honest, I’m not sure really what to write. I’m currently taking Trazodone, and I’ve been on them for about 2-3 weeks, so I don’t think it’s been long enough for them to work but today has been a struggle both mentally and emotionally draining, and I’m not sure why because nothing really has happened to cause such a strong wave of upset, self hatred, anger, restlessness, irritation to the point were I was fighting back tears whilst out in the shop. I just feel like I take a step forward, try to take a day at a time and then take another step back when I have a bad day — but usually a bad day has a cause, today I feel as though I’m beating myself up trying to look for a reason and it’s making me feel more defeated.

[FearIsALiar]

I can totally relate!

[Mone147]

I can totally relate to that. Sometimes I'm doing fine for a really long time and everything is good and I'm in control. And then for no particular reason I fall into this dark hole where I beat myself up and cry for hours and just feel like I wanna die. It happens just like that. But that doesn't mean you're taking a step back again. It's just part of the journey. Healing is a progress and it takes a lot of time so there will be a lot of ups and downs. Try to stay strong and positive. It will get better for sure it'll just take some time.