Introduction

[spector]

Hey im 23 years old and i fell back into depression im medicating but i cant stand myself without it and it sucks. Having a hard time staying positive when my thoughts all want to end this, id never take that option but i cant stop thinking about it somedays and it scares me that i might lose myself again. Hope i can meet people to help each other and talk to someone who understands.

[Hidden]

Hi and welcome! You will find lots of support and understanding here!

I'd be in an awful place if I didn't have my medications.

[spector in reply to Hidden]

I feel the same but it hurts that i cant be myself without them or i cant enjoy myself.

[Hidden in reply to spector]

I hear you. It does hurt. I've gotten used to taking them, but it took me awhile to get to that point.

[HisDaughter]

I'm sorry you are suffering! I am glad you have shared here. It's not easy to suffer from depression. It's been very painful for me and it's also annoying. Are you meeting with a therapist? Medications can help a lot and it's wonderful when they help you and don't cause you many side effects. There are some people who suffer from diabetes and they have to get treatment. Some people suffer from cancer and they have to get chemotherapy. All of us have to do what is necessary for our good. I hate having depression. But it has helped me a lot to talk to a counselor who understands me and listens to me. I hope you always take care of yourself and take your medications if they provide you relief. If you become suicidal reach out to others and share and ask for help. I Googled prayer lines and have been calling places asking them to pray for me whenever I feel very down or suicidal. Take good care of yourself. You are very valuable and important.