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[jessmn62312]

I recently lost my mother to an overdose. She was 57. My father is struggling with addiction himself. I am trying my best to help him, but it's hard. I'm 33 now, I try to be as normal as possible. I have spent my whole life watching my family fall apart due to addiction and violence. I suffer alone with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, social anxiety, and ptsd. I found this website and thought it would be a good starting point. So, hello. I hope to get some answers and knowledge from other people who have similar problems.

[AZ1970]

Bless you! I am so sorry for your loss of your mother. No wonder you have anxiety and depression with all you have gone through. This is a great place to vent and get support. Take care of yourself. You dad's recovery is his alone to figure out. Don't work harder than he does at getting himself well. My dad was an alcoholic so, I know how hard it can be. It took his life 8 years ago. We are here for you.

[jessmn62312 in reply to AZ1970]

Thank you for the support. I am sorry to hear about your father. It is so hard. I battle with myself daily about stepping away from it. I know if he doesn't want to help himself, how can I help him? It is always nice talking to someone who understands and who has gone through it. I don't have anyone around me (friends) who understand. So it's hard to talk about it to anyone. So, thank you for reaching out.

[Hidden]

Hello Jess... I’m so sorry about your Mothers passing. Your Father has to want to help himself...you can’t do it for him. I can understand why you suffer with illness. I went through physical/emotional abuse, not addiction. I think it’s all about the same resulting in mainly depression/anxiety. You no longer have to suffer alone! I’m so glad you’re here! Wishing you the best!!

[jessmn62312 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you GratitudeFirst. I am already happy i joined! I feel like i live in my head with all my thoughts which drive me insane. My husband does not understand so even around him i feel like i can't talk about it. I am looking forward to learning of others story's and just i guess talking about mine!

[Hidden]

Hey Jess .. so sorry for your loss x woah that’s an awful lot for someone to deal with alone ! I’m so glad you were able to find this site x I haven’t had the same experiences but couldn’t ignore your post x wanted to send you my love x you’re not alone anymore x

[jessmn62312 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much Hope4321! It means a lot!

[Agora1]

Hi jessmn62312, I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a mother to her addiction can even be more heartbreaking. I've experienced it second hand when my foster child came to me at age 2. Her siblings were fostered from one home to another because of the addiction of both parents. My daughter is now 25 and lost her mother 5 years ago to overdose/liver failure.

It hurts and it hurts bad. I'm glad you found a safe place to come where we can support you and understand what you are going through. I can only hope you get some healing by talking with others here in the group. Sending you my sincere sympathy. xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

You have such a lovely way and grace about you Agora1! You’re quite comforting and reassuring!

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you and so are you and the other lovely people on this forum. None of us are without emotional and physical pain and yet each and every day we reach out to each other. We all found a reason for being here...Emotional support and love. xx

[jessmn62312 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you Agora1! I am so glad i found this website! I am tired of suffering alone, ya know. I guess i reached my tipping point, but i am glad that i finally am trying to do something about it. This helps a lot! I am so sorry to hear about your daughter. She has you, an angel to guide her. That is a wonderful thing!

[Agora1 in reply to jessmn62312]

And now jess, you have everyone here on the forum behind you. Helping you to heal and go forward in life. You couldn't have found a better website. We are just a message away. xx

[jessmn62312 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much!

[Sillysausage234]

Hiya jess

[jessmn62312 in reply to Sillysausage234]

Hi Alan234!

[Hidden]

Hi Jess, have you heard of adult children of alcoholics? They have a wonderful 12 step program, with meetings online, telephone and in person.

[jessmn62312 in reply to Hidden]

No, but i will look into it!

[Shilohlove]

Hello jessmn62312There are the 3 C’s with addition and family friends having to deal with it. They are you did NOT cause it, you can not cure it and I forgot the last C. My stepson is currently in the ICU because of an overdose. He is 39. His heart is functioning at less than 10%. The nurse stated I can’t believe he is still alive. As hard as it is on my husband he says he got himself in this mess and he is the ONLY one that can get himself out of this mess. We do not know if he will live. If GOD pulls him through, he will have to make life altering decisions in many ways. If you uses again, I doubt he will even have a chance to make it. It breaks my heart to see what family and friends of the loved one has to go through. The only thing we can do is support there positive decisions but there is a fine line not to enable the addict or allow the addict to manipulate us. I have been praying a lot!!!!!!