Infertile and depressed

[sml1617]

I feel like my insides have been scooped out. I feel empty. I feel so depressed I feel like my body is dying a little every day and I can feel the dying minute by minute in my joints and my bones. I’m 33. I am a mom of a child with intensive special needs. I love children and have been ready for my second child for over two years but waited and didn’t even think about it because my husband was too stressed. I recently learned that in that time, I began early premenopause and now I may never be able to have another child of my own. I left my job to take care of my first child. I feel like I have nothing left. Tonight I drank 1/2 a bottle of alcohol to feel something. Everyone in my life says it will be ok but it doesn’t feel ok to me! My eggs are dying and I am dying and no one cares! “It will be ok” “you have options” it’s my body! The part of my body that makes me a woman and a mother is disintegrating and no one in my life understands my pain

[Shnookie]

I’m so sorry that U R going thru this. Do

U see a psychiatrist and R U on any psychotropic meds ? If U R on meds,!i implore and beg U don’t drink any more booze. The combination of the two can be quite dangerous. Speak with your

Gynecologist to see if there R support

groups that U can join. Your life is precious

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

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I'm so sorry you're hurting. My friend back home is in a similar situation as far as an early menopause goes. She says she's not depressed because of it, but I think she is. It must be so hard to through all that at the wrong time of your life. I can't even begin to imagine. I gave her a resource as a way of helping; I'll see if I can find it.😊

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❤️.....I happen to be 50 and I'm realizing I may not ever be a mother. I never wanted to go through the experience of having a baby but I always hoped one day I could adopt a couple of kids and give a couple of kids in foster care a fighting chance. But I don't have much money or even a spouse now. I would say be open to considering adoption if you truly want another child. Not all of the kids in foster care are bad kids. You could really be a blessing to a young child out there. A child is waiting.

[cbgrace1980]

I understand your pain. I tried for years to have a second baby but finally learned that my uterus was inverted. No one had told me this before! I would be unable to carry another child, also because my body stopped making an egg. Trust me I know it feels like your body has failed you, when you trusted it to do its job. There are infertility support groups that will allow you to share how you feel with many women who feel exactly how you do. Please don't keep it bottled up. You are doing great things with your child and you are an amazing mom. We are here for you.

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I said that I'd try and find that resource for you, but I can't find it. I'm sure there are online support groups for this somewhere.

I hope that you're doing okay.😊