Hello am berry have been liking girls for years now and am scared about coming out to my family and the society because gay is not acceptable in my country, alot of people talk about me about the way I dressed like a boy (Tom boy) am so attracted to girls and am scared of letting people know about me because it's like a shame to my family and my brother will kill me if they know about it, am so confused right now because I don't know what to do....because some Christians think it's a big sin, but I can't be with a guy I can't find myself having feelings for any boys except girls I really don
't know what to do because am tired of hiding myself and happiness.
I laid in bed all day today, feeling ashamed
Is it gonna be always like this? 
You know when you think you're feeling better but you're just fooling yourself? That's me..
Starting Over in My 40's
confused hurt &alone
