I don't even know anymore 😔

[Midnightwolf1]

So I quit my 12hr night shift job about 2 weeks ago and ever since, I've felt like a failure and been depressed. I've been trying to get a new one but no luck so far. I tried talking to my Boyfriend about it but he tells me that I'm not depressed, I'm just sad, or frustrated. I tried to talk with him about my feelings but I feel like he never listens 😫. I feel more and more worse as the days go one and me still being jobless. I haven't even started collage yet like everyone else in my class has and my papers for the military hasn't even went through yet. I've been sworn in but I can't receive any benefits off of it, like going to drills for some extra money, or insurance. Or to even start college. All these things pile up and I feel worse and I even began to want to harm again, it like my skin crawls with the anticipation of it and I can't keep dealing with that. I've been clean since Feb and I don't want to mess up now. 😔

~Sky

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Good luck to you sky~ hope things start falling in place for you. Here's a flower for you for luck.🌻🍀

[depressedasf45]

Hey Sky currently rn I can relate to you in so many way love and I want you to knw you can pull through this just don't give up you hear what I say yo don't you never think about giving up yo i'm serious just keep on pulling through and talk to yourself sometimes sounds crazy right but no body gon understand you but you so it's not crazy to give yourself a lil pep talk or talk about what's hurting you the most and if you feel like you want a listening ear from someone reply to this comment and I swear i'll be here in a flash so you can vent to me fam

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to depressedasf45]

I talk to myself all the time that it's gotten to the point that I named my self conscious Jane. We go back and forth, at times she's the one who is negative and I'm positive and other the roles are reversed. For the past 5 months the roles have been her being positive. But I'm trying to hang on, but the thought of it makes me want it more because it helped me relieve stress and frustration and my anxiety and depression but I don't want to go back to that again....

[depressedasf45 in reply to Midnightwolf1]

ohhh I get but if it helps you to relieve your depression and stress just do it again but learn how to control yourself from going overboard cause I also have a strong self and sub conscious I never really named him but up to this day I talk to him a lot and he's dark and he wants me to do bad things to myself but ik how to control my brain from his manipulating behavior

[depressedasf45 in reply to Midnightwolf1]

also your bf should really listen to you and try to understand your feelings more

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Hey. I'm sorry you are feeling like this. Hope you feel better and hope you get a call back. I think you will if you hang on and keep going. Don't give up.

[AllTimeLow]

Have you found a job? Hope you are doing alright.