Daily battle

[Lilly24]

I am suffering bad anxiety constantly lately and everyday seems to be a hard battle to push through and I can feel myself spiralling. I was doing so well feeling loads better for a while now I feel right back at the beginning unable to pull myself out of it and keep thinking what is the point? I'm not living I'm just existing trying to get through each day

[MountainLover22]

I’ve been there too and am even there now, so I hope you don’t feel alone in those thoughts. Those emotional ups and downs are so taxing on us, especially when we are so proud of ourselves in the “good moments.” Just remember we are all here to talk you through the bad moments and to help you realize your worth.

[Lilly24 in reply to MountainLover22]

I keep getting really scared because I'm feeling like I dont want to be here anymore because of it and that thought really worries me I just cant help this feeling of dread I feel rock bottom now just fed up I feel like I have no fight left in me 😭

[Rosco49 in reply to Lilly24]

I had those thoughts a lot a couple months ago and on not so good days they still come in to my head, but remember, they are just thoughts, (disturbing as they seem) accept them and let them drift by, try not to give them too much importance, they are more common in people than you may think. Instead maybe try to think of what you can do to help yourself, perhaps talking with a trusted person or Breathng Space or CALM or Samaritans. I was scared to say it out loud as I thought I would be judged and didn't want to admit such thoughts and feelings, but when did, a weight was lifted. These thoughts will become lesser when you speak to a trusted person, whether that's someone close or an organisation above and you take some steps to feeling better. It may be worth speaking to your GP if you feel youo can as other help will be available too. I wish you lightness and hope in the days to come, you are not alone, you are not crazy, you just need some assistance at the moment, please be kind to yourself.

[Lilly24 in reply to Rosco49]

Thank you so much for that response. I really needed to hear that as I feel super crazy right now.

[Lizziedee]

Hi Lilly this is a horrific Illness and even tho I studied mental health at uni I still can’t escape these bouts, I know the feeling u are suffering from only too well I promise this too shall pass. Can I ask do u use a diary? I used to laugh when I was asked this but it really helps me? I also do a lot of C.B.T (cognitive behavioural therapy) there’s loads on the internet. I wish you well x

[Lilly24 in reply to Lizziedee]

Wow you have studied it at uni did that not help you at all with understanding? The strong feeling of not wanting to be here scared the hell out of me today.

I dont use a diary is that like a daily diary or one just for feelings etc?

[Lizziedee in reply to Lilly24]

It helped me understand triggers etc but when I have my “episodes” all rationalisation goes out the window! I keep a diary that I use every night just to write down my feelings and how my day has been it’s very helpful as I can look back and see how I’ve progressed or declined. The not wanting to be here is so scary but please know it will pass I find the grounding technique helps that is 5 senses, something u can see,smell,taste,touch,hear. Also breathing techniques is a must if it’s done correctly u will feel urself getting better instantly. You are not alone I promise you no matter how you feel things will improve.x

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I can relate to you. I've been trying my hardest to stay ahead of my anxiety with daily coping techniques. But the more time that passes, the more worried I am that it's going to hit me hard at some point. I've started over so many times! But somehow I get up the courage to get back to a good place again. It's taken my whole life to find out what works and what doesn't. You can get better at it over time. Try to remember that it eventually passes and things will get better. Try to take note of what your triggers are and what helps you. Be willing to try new things. It can be a lot of work to manage anxiety...but what choice do we have? You can get through this!

[FearIsALiar]

I know the feeling. It’s so darn painful