Failed again........but tomorrow ?

[Shamzie]

I should be asleep but here I am wide awake at 2:05am.

Why do these vicious and negative thoughts run so wild at nights?

Tonight's introspection : Why cant I do anything right? Why do I lack talent? Why am I always worst at everything?

Arrrrggggghhhhhh

Let's stop .......

Let's try positive thinking, positive reinforcements but its so hard when the failure is real. When the record seems to be screaming WORTHLESS....

UNTALENTED...

GOOD FOR NOTHING ...

NOBODY WANTS YOU AROUND..

Each day I drift further away from the girl I've always wanted to be. Each day feels harder than the previous. Each day I sink a little deeper into believing maybe, just maybe it would be better if I just stopped trying. Can't fail if you never tried right?

This feeling of helplessness and ineptitude. Failed before I've even began.......frozen by fear of failure which causes...........yes you've guessed it failure.

A cycle I keep watching , unable to stop.

A never ending cycle?

I tell myself tomorrow.

Tomorrow is another day.

A new start.

Tomorrow I'll get it done, tomorrow I'll finally have success. Tomorrow I'll get it right.

Never give up hope , never give up the fight

[Ricardo70]

You don't have to go through this alone honey. Just reading your word clearly shows you're an intelligent lady. We ALL make mistakes, f*ck ups and fall down because we're human.

We all need help at one time or another and anybody that says they don't is lying.

Start at a basic level and remind yourself of all the good you've done and all of your achievement's no matter how small.

Distraction is the key, when the bad thoughts come, get up, walk out the room and read a light hearted book or start watching your favourite film, do some knitting, hell it doesn't matter what it is just don't be alone in your mind.

Don't deal with this on your own, get help, it's not weakness and it's the logical thing to do.

[Bigbrovaz]

I get you Shamzie, it’s really hard to keep those intrusive thoughts away especially at night when you are all by yourself and it’s normal to ask yourself these intensely probing questions when you are in your head all the time. i know what it feels like to be at the centre of a circle where everything moves and you feel you’re stuck in one spot. I always feel like I haven’t achieved anything because so many people around me seem to be doing well but you never really know what troubles them, no one has it perfect they’re just good at acting the part...I graduated last year from the university, studied Biology with a good GPA and i still feel this ineptitude because everyone seems to have life figured out and I’m just lost...it’s quite clear you are intelligent and that in itself makes us dream so big and when things aren’t going fine we focus more on the negative....be strong🤗