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[lizzy6571]

Hello everyone

[NahScoob]

Hey, how are you?

[lizzy6571 in reply to NahScoob]

I’ve been better! How are you

[VDC1]

What’s on your mind?

[lizzy6571 in reply to VDC1]

Lots on my mind!

Past few days I’ve been really thinking to myself is this life really worth living.

[Freedom57 in reply to lizzy6571]

Yes it is

[Freedom57 in reply to Freedom57]

Please don’t give up🌻

[Kainan]

Hey! Welcome 👋

[lizzy6571 in reply to Kainan]

Thanks

[Freedom57]

Hi lizzy6571

Welcome! Hope you find the information & support you’re looking for on this site

[lizzy6571 in reply to Freedom57]

Hey freedom! Thanks so much

[kenster1]

hi Lizzy6571 sorry your feeling down hopefully being here can be added support to you....and a warm welcome as well.

[lizzy6571 in reply to kenster1]

Thanks so much

[kenster1 in reply to lizzy6571]

anytime.

[Bigbrovaz]

Hi lizzy I’m currently going through the same thing and that’s why i signed up so I won’t feel alone, it’s worse when those closest to you don’t seem to understand what you’re going through.

[lizzy6571 in reply to Bigbrovaz]

I know exactly how you feel!

[Bigbrovaz in reply to lizzy6571]

You said you have a lot on your mind, do you mind sharing...perhaps someone who’s been through the same would share how they’ve been coping.

[lizzy6571 in reply to Bigbrovaz]

I’ve been dealing with domestic violence for years now.. over 3 protective orders and I always feel sorry for him ,take him back , violate the order and always get pregnant. I recently had another baby and I’m alone and struggling with depression. I’m taking medz but don’t feel any different! Just wasting my life as the days go by from making stupid choices

[Bigbrovaz in reply to lizzy6571]

Domestic violence isn’t something you can manage nor have to put up with, i know you feel sorry for him because you love him and can’t imagine what you are going through. You probably feel stuck and having babies is a big commitment and responsibility which makes the situation even worse. I think you are also holding on to him because you don’t want to be alone or the fear of finding someone else but you have to deal with the problem which is him because your mental health is paramount and if anything happens to you he’ll move on with his life....be selfish

[lizzy6571 in reply to Bigbrovaz]

I truly thank you!! When you said “be selfish” I felt that!! ♥️

[Solow87]

Heyy lizzy. Sorry to hear how you're feeling. What are you up to at the mo? Is there anything that distracts you? Anything you enjoy?

[lizzy6571 in reply to Solow87]

Thanks! I don’t really enjoy much anymore. All I do is sleep most of the time.

[Solow87 in reply to lizzy6571]

Ive lost tinterest in a lot of things too. And understand sleeping lots, I was doing that for a while a few months ago so the days would go by quicker. What did you used to enjoy?

[lizzy6571 in reply to Solow87]

Well going to church on Sunday would make me feel better but it’s been closed since March due to Covid.

Also spending time with my family was amazing and always fun but now I’m embarrassed to be around them after taking my husband back . He did some really really terrible things to me.

[Solow87 in reply to lizzy6571]

Aw i used to go church, have tried a few different ones but i gradually struggle to enjoy them (to feel the spirit/hear God speaking/be moved).

Ah families... mind if i ask why you took him back? Has he often done terrible things throughout your relationship?

[lizzy6571 in reply to Solow87]

All the time he does!!

I would say because he is my husband and the father of my children. I grew up in a home with my mother and father so that fear of raising kids alone is always in the back of my head. The kids are always happy when he’s home but I’m miserable 😢

[Solow87 in reply to lizzy6571]

I've read your convo with big brovaz. And agree with a lot of their last msg. I'm so sorry for what you've been and are going through. Do you have any friends? Can you visit your parents/family without him?

[lizzy6571 in reply to Solow87]

No friends but yes I can visit my family without him!

[Solow87 in reply to lizzy6571]

Thats good. I think like bigbrovaz has explained you need to start putting you first, if not for you for your childrens sake. It's not fair what he's doing to you (and your children, I'm guessing aren't old enough to understand how he's playing jackyl and hyde). They wouldnt be happy, knowing daddy treats mum badly and makes her sad. They might eventually pick up on these things, and i hope they don't ever witness anything. It's gonna be hard but i think your family will have your back in the long run. You need to let him go as a husband/partner lizzy. And just be a co-parent to your children. He doesn't deserve you. And maybe he's taking advantage of that fact.x

[lizzy6571 in reply to Solow87]

You’re the best!!🙏🏾

[Solow87]

And this probably sounds daft/silly, but I've just been reminded of mrs doubtfire! (The parents accepting they were better off not being a couple anymore, just being parents for their children, "mommies and daddies dont always get along".)x