Help Needed

[kfab2015]

I am struggling with severe depression right now. I was hospitalized for self harm and then my boyfriend abandoned me calling me crazy. I am devastated and want someone to talk to.

[Ladybug9]

What is wrong with people? What you needed was his understanding and empathy, not trying to make you feel worse than you obviously already felt! I get so angry when people don't educate themselves and then blame the person who is suffering. Do you self-harm often if you don't mind me asking? Are you able to talk to someone about it other than at a hospital? I've had a few friends who either self harm or did in the past. I hope you are not alone Is there anyone you can call or have someone come over to be with you? Sending you gentle hugs!

[kfab2015 in reply to Ladybug9]

Thanks for your kind words. I don’t have any family and I’ve been so depressed I’ve pushed away friends and haven’t made any new ones. My boyfriend and his family were my whole life so now I feel completely alone, like I am a burden to everyone.

[Ladybug9 in reply to kfab2015]

No one should EVER make you feel like a burden! That is just sad. Often times we push people away because we are afraid they are going to abandon or reject us, so we do it first. You don't have to put up any walls with me. I know how being abandoned or rejected feels all too well.

[kfab2015 in reply to Ladybug9]

Thanks. I’m very appreciate and would love to talk

[Otcee]

I am sorry for what you are experiencing. People can be cruel sometimes. They simply cannot understand what folks like us experience and can't realize it is not our fault, but a brain chemistry imbalance. My own mother (who by the way suffered from undiagnosed depression) also told me to pull myself up by my own bootstraps. Well if we could do that, we WOULD! And that was my mother who loved me unconditional.

I have learned to try to be patient with those that do not understand. I am very open about my mental health disease and try to educate those that don't understand. But sometimes, it is just soooo difficult. Hope that this site will help.

[SeakingLight]

I remember the first episode I had, my mom took me to the ER and thought it was comical, she said "now they think you're crazy". Crazy what does that even mean? I know the feeling of just wanting the inner pain to be less and being willing to do whatever it takes to stop the emotional pain for even just 1 minute. But that doesn't make you crazy. I hope you feel better soon.

[jason23]

I’m here if you need anything, I’d like someone to chat with and I can offer you all the support you want

[JadedKitteh]

If your boyfriend abandoned you in your time if need, you are better off without him. From what you've said, he may have some narcissistic traits. Isolating you from your friends is one of the ways narcissists exert control over you.

[lovetodance2018]

I am so sorry you are struggling. Do you have a medical team working with you? When you are struggling with depression you need a psychiatrist to help you find the right medication to help the chemicals in your brain become balanced. You also need a counselor/therapist to help you find the root of your depression and tools on how to cope. I know because I have struggled with depression for over 20 years. The thing that helped me the most was learning who I am, that I have value, that I am important and matter. I had to not be so hard on myself, and give myself breaks. I also had to accept that depression is a disease. It is something I go through at times in my life but it is not who I am. I recently have become a healthy life coach. Through the program I have learned that being healthy, peaceful, content, and fulfilled comes from the inside out. Learning to heal from the past starts with letting go, moving forward, loving who I am, and accepting that I am not perfect. The number one thing for me is to put God first in my life, keeping him as my main focus, and not focusing on my concerns are struggles. I would be happy to chat with you if you want to pm me. I will be praying for you. Know you are not alone. Reach out anytime. Hugs and God Bless

[lovetodance2018]

How are you doing this week? I have been praying for you. Hugs