So I learned today that my wisdom teeth most likely need to be removed (no they did not tell me how many and I was too stressed out about the news to remember to ask). I’m 19 so I’m pretty much at the prime age for removal.
While many of you think my anxiety is about the pain, it is not. I consider myself to be someone with a high pain tolerance. Or I’m just good at keeping it to myself.
Having anxiety has also made me become accustomed to pain. I tend to get extremely sore and tender muscles and limbs from my nearly constant tenseness. I am also used to horrible jaw pain, because I have a bad habit of unconsciously clenching my jaw.
I’m also a girl so in that way as well, pain is just part of my life.
No, my anxiety is instead of over the idea of 1. Being in a vulnerable state and 2. Having to be taken care of in said state.
Whenever I’m in pain or I’m sick, I very rarely tell anyone and prefer to just handle it myself. The few times I’ve been sick, I begged my mom to leave me home alone while she went to work and I very much preferred that.
As crazy as it is, I get physically nauseous and my adrenaline spikes when someone (like my parents ) asks me “How are you feeling?” in a concerned tone. Like ughh just thinking about it is sending my anxiety through the roof.
I’ve prayed (yes actually prayed) for me to need them removed after I had moved out of my house and lived alone. That way I had control of when people came to my house. I figured I’d probably need my mom or dad to drive me to my apartment or house and then maybe stay for a few hours after to get me settled but then I’d be on my own. They’d come for the occasional visit but I could be by myself.
Unfortunately, I live with my parents. 😒
The only solution I can think of for this is to see if I can get them removed on like a Sunday or a Thursday. Sunday would mean my parents had to work for the next few days and I could be by myself. But if I did Sunday I’d have to miss my first few college classes. Thursday would mean I at least had Friday alone, but I’ve read the later days can sometimes be the worst and I want to be alone for those days. I just want to be alone as much as possible after that initial first day.
I’m also considering asking my oral surgeon if I can just have laughing gas. The fact that I’d be awake takes a weight off my shoulders like you couldn’t imagine. And I’ve been on laughing gas before. It honestly just felt like I had zoned out and time seemed to pass weird. It felt like the unawareness of sleep but I was awake.
And I know that I’d be able to hear things and feel pressure, but if that’s what I had to endure in order to stay awake, I’m fine with that.
There’s really not a question in here. I’m just trying to get my thoughts in order and find a plan that gives me less anxiety. I can’t find anywhere about the anxiety of wisdom teeth removal that doesn’t have to do with pain. Nobody else seems to be afraid of the vulnerability part...