Numb

[jschwab39]

I’m used to having frequent lows, with my depression and anxiety. But I’m starting to feel numb pretty often. It scares me. I have a lot on my plate. Both of my kids have special needs and I’m out of work because of the pandemic so I’m home full time with them. They’re great kids, don’t get me wrong. But their issues can get exhausting to deal with. My husband works full time so I can’t lean on him as much as I’d like. On top of this, I’m under pressure to find a new job that will pay more than my current and accommodate my kids doing fully remote learning in September, since they will need me home with them all day. I will have to squeeze in housework, cooking and sleep somewhere. All of this is making me go from nervous to numb and vice versa. I can’t seem to find joy in much of anything anymore. I don’t have the energy to talk to my extended family or friends anymore.

[zperry4]

Hey really sorry to hear about this. It's definitely messed up that you're getting all of heaped on you and it makes sense that the switch would go from anxiety to numbness at some point. Any chance you can get help with any of these things? I know the pain and disappointment of not having the energy to reach out, but i think it's vital and can often give you energy back instead of taking it away. At least could give it a try. Also are you seeing a mental health person? In my life, even when it's not great, it's something and gives me the time to talk about it, which is often half the battle. Good luck, stay safe.

[jschwab39 in reply to zperry4]

Thanks for replying. I lost my health insurance due to the pandemic, and my new insurance from the Marketplace is very expensive. Seeing a mental health dr is not an option now. I will keep your advice on reaching out in mind.

[zperry4 in reply to jschwab39]

Yeah insurance stuff is cruel. Good luck with all this.

[jschwab39 in reply to zperry4]

Thank you.