So I decided to tell my hubby the depression is back. Okay, I had a break down basically. And I do not feel better, I feel so much worse.
To top my doom and gloom emotions, I now feel an unbearing weight of anxiety. I am tired but jittery. I can't focus, I feel like I am thinking at the speed of light. I am barely holding it together.
I do not know what to do.
First know that you are not alone. Many people suffer with this all the time. I am having a bout with it for the last two days and it’s hard, but their is hope and do what you can do. Reach out and talk about it. This is a great venue for this. I know your pain and we will survive.
I am so sorry for what you are going through. I have been there. And though it seems like it is unsurmountable, you can beat it! Continue to let people in your life, you need the support. And, you might want to find a therapist. The depression and anxiety are usually connected to something deeper... take a deep breath... you are not alone and you are so much stronger than you think! HUGS!
Depression and anxiety are very real issues that so many people struggle with - yet not very widely dealt with unfortunately. I hope you have some trusted friends or a counselor who you can share your feelings with. For anxiety, it also helps to reduce social media and other potential triggers, eat healthy, exercise and do breathing exercises. Also, I don't know if you believe in God, but i feel praying and leaving things in God's hands helps me in a way nothing else can as it gives me peace. Also, try to write down the things that cause you anxiety and tell yourself that for every 'what if' potential negative scenario, there is a counter thought that it has not happened yet. So, look for all the positive things and things t be thankful for in your life.
i feel trapped like there no way out to this misery.. 
I feel like I need to cut my family out of my life, and it's frightening me
Putting my feelings out there
feeling abandoned and like an outsider in my family
Scared in my own skin
