im new and here's a small side of my story

[snowwy]

umm hi im new here, I'd like to share my story .. well when i was 8 years old i had lost a dear friend and i isolated myself from everyone and i didn't know it was a sign of depression or something.. as i got older it got worse to the point now i self harm , i barely eat, i stay awake at night, i think of suicide, and i overdose on random pills, i havent gotten therapy i wanted to bring this to the attention of my parents but I'm scared , that they might say im acting up and its just a phase, i dont know what to do, some people recommended to write down my thoughts, go outside do something like exercise etc.., but it wasnt helping i feel like im trapped in this horrid, cold, cruel place and there's a wall preventing me to come to the other side, i feel broken and shattered and some times i feel like there is nothing inside of me just a dead soul... i dont know what to do.

[Anonymous798]

Hi, I’m so sorry that happened to you. I understand how you feel. I used to be just like that up until the point where I started attempting to end my life. At that point I realized that I had nothing to lose by telling my parents. They couldn’t have possibly made me feel any worse than I already did no matter what they said. Luckily my parents took me to a physiatrist and I got the help that I needed. I believe you can to. I know it’s seems impossible but it’s the best option on the road to recovery. If your parents do think you’re faking it, then depending on where you live and the place, you can go see free a mental health institute without your parents knowing. If that is not an option than you can always call the kids help phone, the suicide prevention hotline, and a ton of other international and national help lines that can help you and guide you. If you are self harming and overdosing then you can also go to the emergency room in the hospital (they have a special emergency place for that.) At the hospital you can see doctors and mental health professionals where they can treat you. Although, I’m not sure how anonymous that is. I really hope things get better. I am here for you if you need to talk. Have a great day.