Hello. Newbie Here.

[Wordsmyth]

Hello. I'm new here. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I thought since this was free and I needed to try and better myself, this was as good as a beginning as anything else. I am Wordsmyth, an author and mother, and I have depression and anxiety. I've just started my real journey of finding who I am by separating with my spouse. Since then, it's been about two weeks since I made the decision, I haven't had a single suicidal thought. I believe I made the right choice from that, but the grief is still very real. I miss the person I married even though I know that person wasn't completely real. At least, not the person they became behind the closed doors.

There was nothing physical, but from the lack of suicidal ideation, I still stand by my thought that this was the right move. Right now, I'm trying to celebrate my wins and allow myself to grieve. I will be forgiving to myself.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Welcome to this site. You’ll meet some great people here. Keep posting and let us know how you’re doing.

[Wordsmyth in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you. I plan to.

[Healing-today]

Hello, I’m new new also. your post is the first I read, and here I am commenting. I am also going through a separation and the grief is REAL. Very anxious here, doing what I can to help myself. I believe this is a good start.

[mrmonk]

Hello and welcome to this HealthUnlocked community, Wordsmyth. There are so many friendly, compassionate, empathetic folks here to support you on your journey.

I can relate a great deal to that grief of having to separate from a spouse. In my case, it was the realization that my marriage just couldn't continue despite the fact that I still loved my wife -- that was and still is the hardest part.

You mentioned you're an author -- what sorts of things do you write?

[Wordsmyth in reply to mrmonk]

I'm a multi-genre author and still fairly new. Not much in solo works currently, but I do have a batch of anthologies (with other authors) under my belt. I was hoping to be solo this year, but with everything going on, I'm going to have to push it for next. That's okay though. I just don't want to stop writing.

[mrmonk in reply to Wordsmyth]

Is poetry one of the genres by any chance? I'm always on the lookout for new poets.

[Wordsmyth in reply to mrmonk]

Unfortunately, no. I haven't written poetry in a long time and never thought to publish any of it. I'm sorry.

[mrmonk in reply to Wordsmyth]

Oh, no worries. It's great to have a creative outlet, whichever way the writing flows.

[Wordsmyth in reply to mrmonk]

Your realization is similar to my own. So I definitely get that. Thank you for telling me a bit about yours. It's nice to know I'm not alone.

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Hi,

I'm new here too. Hi!

I left my spouse a year ago for abuse and the divorce just became final. He was arrested a number of times. I became more anxious and depressed. It wasn't an easy decision even though I knew if I wanted to live happily I had to throw him out and divorce him.

I know how you feel. You grieve no matter what..it's a loss..a death..it's the best thing to do if you're in an intolerable situation. The thing is life does get better as time goes on...you surround yourself with positive people who support you and stand by you.

Seems like you're on the right track...my blessings 🙏