Hello everyone on here. Mental disease is no joke at all. I’ve had OCD all my life, ever since I was a child. I’ve been seeing psychiatrists most of my life, been on all different types of meds. Finally depression set in years later. I had been having bouts with depression in my later years.
Im retired due to my disease and it’s not easy at all at times. I do see my therapist once a week and an APN, once a month for my meds. She says I have medication resistant depression. Anyways I do everything I can to help my depression, I lift weights, ride my bike, read, and try and meet up with friends when I can to socialize. Today was rough though. I got up early did lift weights and felt ok, as the morning progressed I kept going downhill into my deep depression. I didn’t want to let it get me, but it did, and wow!!! I went to my daughters grandparents and I tried to smile and enjoy myself. My daughter was so happy to see me. I have a little baby girl that’s just nine years old. I adore her. But I tried to make the best of it. I ate and hung out and I even played chess, but I felt like crying. Anyways the negative thoughts were bombarding me, but I tried to keep myself composed. I even managed to beat my ex brother in-law in chess, to my surprise. I was thinking of maybe discussing intensive outpatient treatment at a hospital with my therapist. Well, I’m trying to search and do anything I can to at least have my depression, but not let it get the best of me. Bless everyone on here. SAMSON
Just having a tough time 
Tough family situation
Alone and Depressed on the 4th
Married life is realy very tough
