I can barely muster the energy to get out of bed...I'm struggling not to completely give in to what feels like a much needed "pity party" meltdown. I haven't worked out in weeks, and every time I begin a job application I just feel overwhelmed. Ugh, I'm depleted...cannot take having another bad boss experience. This mood can't continue...
#BurntOut #Sad #Depressed
I just told my boss I couldn't come in (usually I say it's because I don't feel well physically and make up some lie but then with everything going on with this virus I would need a doctor's note so I went with the truth of having high anxiety and not being able to stop crying)... told her I could see my patients Saturday.. She told me no that it wasn't possible. And now I am crying more. And so confused. Is it my ego that's hurt now and that's why or is it feeling like I have no control.
I don't think this was helpful but just wanted to let you know I understand not wanting a bad boss experience. My boss isn't bad though but just does not fully understand.
I will tell you this, I've been suffering with anxiety and depression for the past 4 years and it's been hard for me to keep a job for a long period of time because of my anxiety and depression. But during these past 4 years, I have had bosses that understand and are flexible with me or have given me time off so I can regroup.
So research the companies and if you don't notice any flags, apply. You might still get a bad boss but one day you won't and you'll be so happy you have that job.
Is your boss asking you to take time off to recover healthwise or asking you to leave the job? If the latter is the case, then this is discrimination pure and simple based on your disclosure of a mental health condition. You could think about some reasonable accommodations to allow you to develop a plan to stay at work. Dawn Fitter wrote an excellent book called "Working in the Dark" which I recommend. Dr Google will have other links to look at.
Hi thank you. I asked for today off to recover but she denied it saying we were too busy. She has not asked me to leave my job yet. And you're right; it'll be harder for them to let me go now that I've disclosed my mental health condition. Thank you for the book recommendation. I will definitely look into it.
Did you find any jobs today that you like?
Feel a little paralyzed today
Anyone else a paralyzed perfectionist?
Unemployment and other stuff
Paralyzed by fear
Officially unemployed 
