Why does no one love me

[Thelonewolf22]

Why can’t my all be enough why can’t someone see my angry sides and be willing to talk it out instead of of just leaving.

[thechae]

Just know, I hear you and I understand what you’re feeling right now. I, too, have lost someone because of an argument. I always thought what if I didn’t get angry and just held in what I felt so that person was comfortable. Listen, please do not hide in your emotions for someone. Be honest and open. If that person does not want to actively listen to you like you do to them, then they are not the person who you want to spend the rest of your life with. You should find someone patient and caring that will be honest with you like you are with them.

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to thechae]

It’s not just that with that I let my anger control me and I did terrible things to create a scene

[Thelonewolf22]

You don’t understand it switched up within one day. She changed and got all emotional about how she couldn’t do it and I let my hurt become a rage of fury and I couldn’t control myself anymore

[Thelonewolf22]

So it is my fault and I hate myself for it and honestly I don’t deserve to be here because of it

[Thelonewolf22]

But my reaction to it completely messed everything up I lost friends because of it too and I’m scared of what I am. I’m a monster

[Thelonewolf22]

We dated for weeks and I fucked it up already. I made complete scene I pushed her and I was a complete monster to the people around me and now that’s my reputation

[Thelonewolf22]

I have gotten countless diagnoses and they are all different and I have had such trauma with therapy and what people call “help” they are just in it for the money

[Kainan]

Couldn’t have said it better. Really sound advice and insight

[Thelonewolf22]

I know why I feel the way I do. It’s because of how much bullying and rejection I’ve been through. I never have felt wanted by anyone and anytime someone says they need a break I automatically assume that’s the end and I fucked it up

[Thelonewolf22]

Therapy also doesn’t help me I don’t want to talk to a person that is paid to listen to my problems I’d rather figure it out myself