Thoughts. What should I do?

[Navy01]

Hello everyone. It has been a while since I logged in here. I think for the past few months, till now perhaps, all I did was trying to avoid anything that can trigger my anxiety. This includes a lot of things, pressure being an architecture student, family problems I had, unnecessary drama among the classmates. Everything, somehow will be linked to one another everytime I think of a specific problem I had (or have). It somehow looks like a food chain. One will be linked or has something to do with the other. Few months ago, I found out that I have all three : depression, anxiety and stress. Most of all anxiety and stress. I've been wanting to seek for professional help but due to situation that's going on now, it is hard to do so

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Most Students suffer Anxiety and Depression. You are in the most important and intense period of your life, so you will not be alone, Study is hard work especially if the College is temporary closes down due to Covid.

All I can suggest is try and keep learning, it is no good worrying about what has passed work on what you need to achieve in your life, remembering to always centre on learning and understanding your subject. Let those who have the time to mess around fail. You will be ok and get your tickets

BOB

[Navy01 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for replying BOB

Study is no doubt, needs hard work. I want to keep learning but because of my already lack of interest in architecture, my mind just won't stop being blank and numb. I feel like I don't deserve to be in this course as I have some problems expressing my imagination or create one, as what my lecturer said. I feel that I'm always self-conscious, either it's about my work or the thoughts of others ( judgemental ones of course). The obstacle I'm facing is of course, myself as till now, I'm still living in fear and in the past. Fear of not doing things right, fear of not becoming the person that I have set to be. And living in the past doesn't help at all. This makes my mind to be more unhealthy as it already has.

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Navy

I made the error of taking a qualification that I had little real interest in However I did eventually find my interests, I did still work at my job and made my money accordingly until I was forced out and retired because of my Disabilities. That was in 1988 and I was able to try various activities I enjoyed. thirty years of following my interests. most Voluntary.

We all need to work to live, however we also require to make money to live, life is never perfect, we need to make that salary to marry and possibly bring up children. Life is not as we would like it, however that does not prevent us to follow our dreams

If your course is not the subject you really want, consider the content and see if you can follow a different pathway with your qualifications. You are returned to the need to feed and live your Life and that of family. You want to be able to follow a dream nothing will stop you go for it, you only need to follow Life Obligations

You need to follow your own dreams, however you need understand you will need to follow the route that is indicated to you. Interests may need to take second place to the overall plan to your Life Choices

Make your decision regards future, remember you may need to work in a job not suitable for your dreams,

I was told at work, Employers do not employ you to enjoy you work position, you are there to make money to get those needs you have for life choices. Happiness is your personal life and expectations

BOB