On January 6th, 2020, I had to have a D&C done for a missed miscarriage at 21 weeks. Two weeks later, my mom passed away and I had to be the one to make the call to end her life peacefully.
Since then, my husband had been having issues with his blood pressure (which are now under control) but I don’t know if it’s like my mind is suctioning off him but now I wake up paralyzed in fear every day that I’m going to have a heart attack. I’ve been to the ER twice in the past month, seen a cardiologist and have tests set up for later this week but I feel like I’m on this never ending roller coaster and I just want to get off.
2020, you can leave now.
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AmandaEvelyn
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I’m so truly sorry for your losses, that’s a great deal to process and grieve. Also sorry for your husbands health issues. Might I suggest that you are suffering from depression, generalized anxiety and perhaps PTSD? I would recommend seeing a Dr/ therapist to help guide you through this terrible time in your life! Outside help is often the very best(confidential, no judgement, genuine trust). Please make an apt to see a therapist!! You’ll thank yourself later!! ❤️
I’ve been seeing a counselor for a couple months now and I’m on meds. I have an appointment today at ten to see about changing some because these just aren’t doing anything for me. Thanks for the advice! I’ve wondered about PTSD too. Hopefully after my appointment, I’ll be able to find some sort of peace.
I’m so glad you have an established therapist and are seeing them today!! Talk to them about specific symptoms you are experiencing, even if you think they’re not related. Ask about your diagnosis!! It’s your right to do so. ALL symptoms are relevant for diagnosis and medication. The real bummer is that medication can take a while to get straight and work effectively. Keep trying though because one day you will find something that works and you’ll know it when you feel it! Until then, practice breathing, stretching, reading - anything you feel will reduce your anxiety. PLEASE reach out anytime and keep us updated ok? - Kelli
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So tired
i am so tired of living like this 
I’m so tired of being obsessed with my heart
Im just so tired
feel so tired 
