Anxiety roller coaster

[Msheatherlady]

My anxiety has been a roller coaster every day since all this started. One moment I can be fine the next moment I’m on the verge of a panic attack. The scariest moment for me was finding out I’d been in direct contact with someone who was confirmed with Covid-19 and it scared me. I had to be home quarantined and I cried at least once or twice everyday. I live with my mom but before all this I was never home unless I was going to bed because me and my mother don’t get along a lot. I’ve been going out of my way to try and get along with her but the littlest things set her off and it’s so frustrating. As much as I want to say that I don’t like my mom I know that’s not true because I wouldn’t be this upset about this if I didn’t care. To be honest I think all I’ve ever wanted was the mom you see in tv and movies that would do anything for their kid, love them, and be there friend. My mom is bipolar so I know that sometimes it’s not her fault but I’ve been hurt by her so many times it’s hard for me to trust her. I also miss seeing my grandma. She’s my best friend and I used to see her every day, and yes we still talk on the phone but it’s not the same. I want her to be safe so I’m staying away since I’m still working. I miss seeing my friends, and my family. I know I’m not the only one feeling this way but everything is so stressful and scary right now and it’s hard to keep it together at times.

[SunnyDay13]

I understand the anxiety. If you need to talk, chat on here. Expressing your feelings will keep you from getting stressed and reacting in a way you don’t like. It seems

you realize your mom is just a struggling person, too. So that’s a start for being less affected by what she does.