By reading this post I understand myself better

[Roukaya]

I have just started reading your posts and I now realise I have anxiety and depression

This will explain why I struggle to pass my exams after three attempts , struggle to find employment and struggle to live on my own and deal with a demanding Mother overseas

[Mary-intussuception]

Hello Roukaya and welcome to this group.

You will find lots of love and understanding on here, many caring people.

I'm just going to bed now but maybe we can chat again some time.

God Bless x

[Toddy1965]

It is a good idea to share with people who are non judgmental and can at least have some idea of how you may be feeling. Please share more and say what is on your mind and in your heart

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[Roukaya in reply to Toddy1965]

I hope you are safe and well

Kind of you to suggest talk more openly

I do talk but I also realise we are all suffering due to this Pandemic

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Roukaya]

Yes, it is a real concern. Even though your Mother is demanding, are you concerned for her health ? The fact that she is so far away must make it extra difficult. Is she generally fit and well ?

[Roukaya in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Good morning

I hope you are safe and well

How are you managing to cope

I think I have been struggling mentally to cope since I lost my Dad two years ago

I have since struggled to requalify in Wills and Probate and my Mother is elderly and living on her own

Her health is quite good and I realise she is on her own

But being the sole carer of my Fathef I find it hard to cope with my Mother’s repetition

I explained if I was to fall ill God protect us all I would like to say you would not be able to repeat yourself

She was not pleased with this

I think this lock down period had made me realise what I can do to come out of my present situation

If God allows me to survive I will know what matters the most

How are you coping

How do you fill your days

Thank you for replying

Stay Safe and Stay Well

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Roukaya]

We're coping here thanks. I have numerous physical disabilities as well and seem to be tired all the time just now.

Shopping yesterday in the supermarket was a bit stressful as there are some people who won't keep to the social distancing rules.

I have lots to do here so hope to feel better tomorrow. But presently filling my days just resting !

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Hi there, I am glad you have found a place where you feel safe enough to express how you are feeling. I have learned that I have to be very careful about what words I use to express myself, my situation, my friends & loved ones as sometimes the words fester about, root themselves, and then express themselves outwardly. Whether it is that it is a predictor, reality, or a cause I do not know. However, switching from I'm depressed and anxious to I don't feel that well right now as helped stave off some of my trips down the rabbit hole. Please keep expressing how you're feeling. This COVID 19 situation has uprooted our lives in many ways, leaving many of us on an emotional roller coaster, confused, uncertain, etc. On a good day, I can follow a routine -- exercise, read, work some, etc. and dream of what I will do after my weeks (months???) of being all alone without another living being. Yet other days, moments when the the thought of weeks/months alone are just too overwhelming. You are certainly not alone in your feelings. I hope you find some peace today.

[fauxartist]

I think you are one of the very few members who have realized that by reading posts and comments, it's probably the best way to understand how and why you feel the way you do. So many just want someone to tell them what they want to hear, to fix them, like we here could do that,…if we could, then we would have already done it for ourselves and wouldn't need to be here talking about it. Everything takes time, and it is trial and error, we are all different, but have similar basic issues, its feeling connected and not judged and understood that is the start to understanding ourselves. This site is one tool in the tool box,… reading, therapy, group, meds for some, and herbals for others...whatever works.