Just needing some support and perhaps words of wisdom? I suffer from depression, anxiety and PTSD. It’s been a daily battle, for years now, even with very intense and consistent treatment. I’ve lost my career, my home and a great deal of my support system. The primary crux of my excruciating current daily pain, however, was the recent decision to have my dogs rehomed as I was no longer able to support them. They’re both older and needed ongoing medical attention and long story short, finding them a family to love and care for them through a rescue I know well was in their best interest. I, however, am devastated, truly just heartbroken and feel like I’ve lost my only remaining family. I’m so sad I can’t bear it and feel like such a failure. I just can’t believe my life has turned out this way and I’m wondering if this pain and struggle will ever subside. I feel like losing my “babies” is just too much to bare. 😢
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Hello KCC
Not sure I have any words of wisdom, but I’m so sorry for your struggles. I too had to give up working in a good job some time ago, and my life changed so much...I know how strong we have to be, and how awful and exhausting it can be too...so sorry about those gorgeous doggies too ..but you have done the best for them, you’ve made sure they will be taken care of, to love them unconditionally as you have is so wonderful, they are being cared for and loved, now is time to care for you..
I never thought I’d get over the changes that I had to make in my life..it was one extreme to the other..in short, I have slowly slowly made a different life, don’t get me wrong, it’s still tough at times, but, when I’m well, and things are ok, I enjoy different things now, and I can appreciate different things..it took time and quite a bit of therapy but now I can’t imagine going back to most things I used to do...
I wanted to say hello and to wish you all the very best, and to say be proud, you have had to come through some awful things..you deserve to have some nice things happen in the future, and they can..
Thanks so much Olivia, I find your words very reassuring. It’s kind of you to reach out. It’s also helpful to me knowing that you’ve struggled and persevered through the same challenges I’m currently facing. “Starting over” is just so overwhelming and painful right now. I’m clearly at the bottom and have to make my way back up but knowing it can be done is helpful to me, it offers me hope, which I don’t currently feel. Losing my dogs is unbearable but I’m trying to reassure myself that it’s what’s best for them. Again, thanks for checking in - I feel supported and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate it.
It is horrendous what you are going through. With anxiety and depression it’s like continuous torture. It’s dealing with the cause which haunts us daily as then we have to deal with the symptoms of anxiety and depression that it brings. Have you tried meditation?
Once you have mastered meditation which although it is a simple practice, but difficult to learn at first it will give you’re mind and body some much needed relief. I and many others have lost a lot due to mental illness. Try to let the feelings flow into yourself without too much fear and pretend you are a floppy rag doll showing no resistance. I hope this helps a little as we are all in this together
Hi, thanks for this. Your advice about meditation is valued. I love the image of picturing myself as a rag doll and showing no resistance, I’m going to try this. What happens for me is that I will begin to let it all out and I become so overwhelmed I check out (disassociate) and then become numb and it stops any further expression of emotion. I think meditation would be a viable option to try and mediate this. Thank you again for the suggestion.
I’ve been to this thread 4 times this morning, I’m having trouble coming up with anything that might bring you comfort. Your situation truly is heart breaking, I’ve been through the loss of career, had persistent depressive disorder for 13 years (complicated by several factors including medication that made me worse). I lost my dog due to health reasons during that time, I cannot tell you how many times she saved me from myself over those years. The power of that companionship has on us only dog owners would understand.
Take all the time you need, grieve, in time you’ll feel better, the pain will ease but the loss will always be there. I don’t want the loss I feel to ever go away as I never want to forget her or have life occupy me so much that I never think of her often if that makes sense.
Thank you. I’m so sorry we share the same loss, it truly is heartbreaking in a way I’ve never experienced. They were my family, my support and now all I feel is lonely, scared and sad. I can’t imagine my life without them, it still feels surreal in some ways. Ugh 😥 Anyway, thank you for sharing.
Are you sure you’re better without them? I’m sorry you’re going through this but I can’t imagine not having your doggy support system behind you. Only you know what’s best so good luck finding the help you need and hopefully quickly. A good therapist should sort you out and maybe after you can reunite? Sending all positive thoughts!
KC I feel you and am looping you love. Infinity love beyond into health wellness stability. We shall overcome! Volunteer at the local pet shelter, the one you know well. Channel health and healing from grief, cherish your time with those Goldies & pray for their safe journey over the rainbow bridge. If you love be something set it free. Believe in your self & decision. Om shanti, shanti. Blessings
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