Help

[sarahmcf]

I've been a stay at home mom since August. Monday I started a new career working with children with autism and various other diagnosis in a structured school type setting. Today I called in and am in bed. The first two days were great. I loved being around people and seeing the students. Yesterday was rough. Both physically and mentally. My son was up all night. I got up and got ready for work and started to drive to work and ended up just sitting at a stop sign. Completely in a depression fog. I couldnt think about anything. I just felt so empty. Like my insides were just gray nothingness. I drove home. Called in stating I was having a family emergency and crawled into bed. I feel so guilty and ashamed of myself for not being able to go to work. I want to work. I want to be around other adults. I want to contribute to my household. But my psyche is so fragile. What do I do.

[kenster1]

hi its great that your striving for a better life for you and your family.pat yourself on the back rather than letting illness define you.we have days when we feel really off so don't be to hard on yourself and hopefully go again tomorrow.