Success despite depression?

[Corneille]

It is no surprise I'm sitting at my work station with teary eyes trying to write a post but having no idea what I really intend to articulate. Is my job making me sick or am I just paranoid? In my state my post won't really be coherent but it's a genuine cry for help. If you can piece my statements together and they make sense, please reply.

I have amazing goals and aspirations. I write them when I'm feeling well then I spend the rest of my days being counter-productive when I'm not feeling well, which is 70% of the time. I feel like even if I were to live for 50 more years, I'd only be alive for 15 (that's 30% if you are doing the math).

I don't know....I could make this article long and boring, tell you how I struggle with symptoms you all already know about; tell you how my meds are making me sleep for 10 hours a day and eat several meals a day but that's not what I really need help with. I've got a psychiatrist taking care of that, I'm not really keen on therapy at the moment been there done that, yoga was great maybe I should go back?

Anyway the core question is: is it actually possible to be successful when you suffer from depression? If you see my financial and health goals you'll be pretty impressed but if you witness my actions in the days that follow you'll be pretty disappointed. How do you make it in a world full on mentally healthy people when your condition's area of expertise is turning you into a useless cabbage that will eventually commit suicide and no one will miss as you pushed away all your loved ones away and dodged every opportunity to build relations with them.

What to do?

1. I want to succeed financially

2. I want to lose weight

3. I want to build a relationship with my creator

4. I don't want to throw the Towel

By succeed I mean Jeff Bezos level of success. Why not, if I'm going to dream, ain't nobody putting a limit of how far I can go. So guys I need help with 2 things.

1. An honest/scientific/realistic answer to the question is this level of success possible for people suffering from chronic depression?

2. If yes, how do you do it? I need a manual. If a depressed person were a machine; what would the manual read? I need hours, calories, kilograms, dollars, service times, number of hours of sleep. Success Despite Depression Guide 101.

I'm willing to fight this guys. But if it's a losing battle please keep in 100 with me. Much appreciated.

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I don't think a Bezos-level success is realistic for anyone.

[froggie_boi]

i feel like i relate a lot to your post. yes i have ambitions and future plans and goals but at the same time i feel numb,as if im floating through life. i sometimes can muster up a fake smile but i know deep down that i am truly unhappy. i try my best to push on and live my life but i have little motivation. my only motivation is me trying to make my friends and family happy but other than that nothing im completely numb and i feel so alone in this world