Tired

[TheMeg]

All weekend it has been so nice out. I've been able to spend a ton of time out in the sun and even got to do some stargazing, which I love. But I just kept getting more and more sad. I don't know if it's because I had the house to myself so I didn't have to pretend to be okay anymore but I've just felt terrible. I'm tired of being sad for no reason. I'm tired of feeling so exhausted all of the time. I'm tired of thinking about random things and getting so fixated I can't think of anything else. I'm just so tired.

[Hidden]

Having the house to yourself may be the exact reason to weren't feeling great.. You've said here and other posts the you "can't be yourself due to living with your folks.. "Maybe on some level, you've forgotten who you really are and and by default you act as you would if your folks were home and you simply stay depressed out of habit... ???

[TheMeg in reply to Hidden]

Sorry for the delayed response. That's possible. I think it may be that I was finally able to feel exactly how exhausted I am with having to pretend all the time

[Hidden]

The Meg my response was cut off some how.. It's advisable to live your truth.. Try and find the time and words to express yourself to your parents.. Open up some non threatening communication avenues.. No harm in trying.. it sometimes comes down to the language, timing and circumstance.. If it doesn't work.. no harm no foul, you tried..Don't continue to beat yourself up.