Super mega anxiety after new therapy

[weegmack]

I’ve started with a new therapist - not NHS, but all above board. After years of NHS Community Mental Health therapy and getting nowhere, I’m trying privately. So, this is much more full-on and last week (Thursday) I worked on a lot - even stuff I had buried an haven’t spoken about for years. Friday morning, I woke up with loads of energy, but as the day went on, I started to feel like my throat was going to close over, my ears started to hurt and my chronic daily headache became unbearable. It was my mum’s birthday this weekend, so I was baking, cooking, cleaning all of Friday, had the family party on Saturday and then had a huge pile of ironing to do yesterday.

On Friday night, I had the most awful night - I felt like I was only sleeping under the surface and I felt a sense of extreme terror the whole time. Like there was an evil presence around me. I haven’t been sleeping well, but this took the biscuit. Since then, I haven’t slept well.

So my question is, does anyone think my physical symptoms as mentioned above are due to the deepening of my therapy? I am acutely anxious. I also have health anxiety and have had to stop watching news and avoiding all media because I’m terrified of coronavirus. I feel like I need a good cry, but it just won’t come 😓😓.

Can anyone else relate? Just to speak to someone who suffers with physical pain, especially similar to mine, would help loads. Much love ♥️

[lillyofthevalley37]

If your new therapist has been taking you back to uncomfortable times this may be the underlying cause of your recent anxiety?

I suggest you say the Lords Prayer if you feel an evil presence

[weegmack in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Yes she is. Childhood stuff - it’s traumatic. I had a terrible flu virus for all of December and into January also, so I’m totally freaking out that I’m getting flu again. I was extremely ill with it and it also affected my guts, so I was in a bad way and almost in hospital with it (but thankfully turned a corner before they could take me in). I’m genuinely frightened. Terror is the word I feel right now.

I’ve been praying against the evil, thank you ♥️. Some days I’m too exhausted to pray but I’m trying, xx

[Sprinkle1]

Glad you got a new therapist who is really helping you. I think as it went back to your childhood, there was probably a lot of stuffed feelings at that time, now they are being released. Tell your therapist what happened and let her help you uncover anything else that needs to be brought to the surface and released. Therapy is a brave and strong thing to undergo, be patient with yourself. Do not frighten yourself with imagined illnesses, just know it is your body releasing old pain and frustrations. You will get well, sometimes it is 2 steps forward and 3 steps back. Be kind and loving to yourself, know you are on an adventure, some are fun, some are more difficult, but it will end. I know, I went thru it, it was difficult but I hung in there and it paid of big time.....I am happy and free......Sending you courage, strength, peace, love and hugs.....Sprinkle 1.....

[weegmack in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you so much ♥️♥️. Your reply is so encouraging to me and I’m so grateful. I’m terrible at being kind to myself! So Im going to run myself a lovely, bubbly bath later. I’m so, so tense and it’s no wonder I’m in pain I suppose.

I’m really glad that you have benefited from your therapy and feel so much better. You’re right - I must see it as a journey. And we did a lot of work on childhood trauma. I feel like I need a really good cry, but it just refuses to happen for some reason.

Thank you ♥️