Dark thoughts...

[SoniaGorgeous]

I get so painfully paranoid that i just wanna smash my head into the wall just to shut it, the chain of black dark thoughts are endless, they all seem so logical!!

I know that I’m my own enemy but I can’t stop it and it hurts so much I’m crying.

[SoniaGorgeous]

Thank you for this, i do need to be reminded that they are lies, I’m a very logical person so when these thoughts occur it’s hard to differentiate between logic and sabotage.

[Starrlight in reply to SoniaGorgeous]

I am practicing throwing the negatives out and replacing with a happy thought like a happy place to go to,... creative visualization.. I picture myself running on the beach...

My heart feels your pain. I’m so sorry and I wish you beautiful moments of peace and joy.

[Tink3rb3ll1972 in reply to SoniaGorgeous]

Try an app called DARE it helps explain how to calm your thoughts with techniques and how the body is going into fight of flight mode so you experience awful sensations and thoughts, it helps you accept what’s happening and not fight it so, it’s still a challenge but has been helping me with reframing thoughts and understanding what’s happening

[Starrlight]

How are you feeling now? Is the paranoia always there? What do you get paranoid about?

[SoniaGorgeous in reply to Starrlight]

I feel bad tbh, angry even.

I’m paranoid about my relationship with my bf.

[Starrlight in reply to SoniaGorgeous]

It will be okay. Is there any reason you have to be paranoid about your relationship?

[SoniaGorgeous in reply to Starrlight]

To say the truth, No.

he is nothing but a sweetheart with me, who helps me handle my demons, he didn’t gave me a reason to doubt him, but i get so possessive and paranoid, my dad cheating on my mom Affected me to the core. I hate that this is happening to me, i hate that I’m acting crazy, i feel so ashamed at the same time.

[Starrlight in reply to SoniaGorgeous]

I don’t think you are acting crazy at all. I think it’s comforting to know our partners are there for us but, I, like you, also have paranoid thinking even though he is amazing to me,...I think we will work through it. I sure hope so it’s hard to see when in it...blessings to you and may you have beautiful moments

[Hidden]

Tears are a healthy release of pain. I had to learn to cry freely. Your post makes me think of an acronym that helped me with my anxiety

False

Evidence

Appearing

Real

Feelings are very real but they aren’t reality and they will pass. It helps me 💛

[SoniaGorgeous in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for this, I really appreciate it ❤️

[Hidden in reply to SoniaGorgeous]

I hope it does. I know it hurts but it will pass 💛

[Moonlight65]

I can totally relate....it hurts so much that i fail to sleep all the time. What hurts the most the fact that no one understands you, not even family.

[Hidden]

Let the thoughts happen and then really interrogate them. Are they valid? Is there any truth to them? If there is a kernel of truth, you can find a working way to deal with that, if they aren't then you can work on letting go of them. Journaling about them might help you find out if there is a root cause to them. For example, if you have a stressful day at work, that might exacerbate them. At least then you will know what sets them off. I hope you can work this out, paranoid thoughts are no fun.