So I'm here after a very trying first year of teaching. I was in two schools that were very needy in a very diversely populated small city. There were a lot of difficult circumstances that were beyond my control. I did my best, and was still not renewed. I know it doesn't sound like a big deal, just go apply for a new job, but I've worked my entire life to get qualified to teach and now I'm also backed into a corner, because not only was it a hard year career wise, I also had my roof blow off, lost my bestie Siamese kitty Azzy to breast cancer and my car still needs a transmission. So with a NEW loan to fix the roof, student loans and mortgage payments I no longer have the option to take any job, it has to pay enough to pay the bills. And of course then the shower stopped working in February. I've paid people to look at it and they all scratch their heads, take my $ and say I don't know (until the latest guy who thinks he knows, but can't do the work.....still cost me $100). I've been so low my house is a disaster because whatever energy I had I put into teaching and really only kept up with dishes & laundry (kinda); I stress/binge ate myself from a size 12 to a size 22 - I am mentally and physically exhausted.....I have nothing left. I am having a difficult time, in consideration of that, filling out applications for a new school year, and it's extremely difficult to find a music teaching job in my area - I was traveling an hour to my last gig. It took me 4 years to be hired the first time, so what now? I can't go another 4 years.
I came to the game late - quit college to marry an idiot that I subsequently divorced ( mostly because I was trying to finish college and he did everything he could to try to hinder me). I have 2 adult children (one kinda lives here).
I love my kitties. I mentioned I lost Azzy to breast cancer. Apparently, Siamese are high risk, I had no idea. She was the sweetest girl I ever had. A few years back I lost my boyfriend cat, Bastien. I do still have Jinny (a big calico coon) and Onyx (Bastien's sister).
Really haven't been interested in doing anything, which isn't helping with the weight situation. That really bites because I lost 120 pounds and kept it off for a number of years until this year when I gained a good 80 of it back.
I probably shouldn't post this late. I always regret when I do, but along with age comes hormones which aren't helping this situation. Oh well, I'm sure I'll live to regret it.